Chủ Nhật, 3 tháng 11, 2013
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Aq haram Bosss,, Kenapa koq dimakan????
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"Sesungguhnya Allah hanya mengharamkan bagimu bangkai, darah, daging babi, dan binatang yang (ketika
Thứ Tư, 16 tháng 10, 2013
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Thứ Hai, 14 tháng 10, 2013
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Chủ Nhật, 13 tháng 10, 2013
Download Ebook Dongeng Cerita Anak Gratis
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Thứ Năm, 10 tháng 10, 2013
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Thứ Tư, 9 tháng 10, 2013
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Thứ Năm, 19 tháng 9, 2013
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Thứ Ba, 17 tháng 9, 2013
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Thứ Hai, 16 tháng 9, 2013
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Kali ini Maznoer ingin berbagi tentang kumpulan ebook catur yang maznoer miliki, Ebook catur yang menarik dan berkualitas tentunya diharapkan dapat membantu para pencinta catur untuk meningkatkan kualitas bermain catur lebih baik lagi.
Maznoer memiliki koleksi 50+ Ebook Catur berkualitas, dan bermaksud membagi ke teman-teman
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Maznoer memiliki koleksi 50+ Ebook Catur berkualitas, dan bermaksud membagi ke teman-teman
Chủ Nhật, 15 tháng 9, 2013
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Mungkin Anda pernah mendengar atau membaca kata-kata seperti ini "Memulai usaha dengan modal dengkul" atau "memulai usaha
Thứ Bảy, 14 tháng 9, 2013
Download Template SEO Friendly 2013
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umum menyebutnya dengan nama Kanker Darah itu karena terjadi pada sel –
sel darah. Leukemia (kanker darah) adalah jenis penyakit yang menyerang
sel – sel darah putih yang diproduksi oleh sumsum tulang (Bone Marrow).
Sumsum tulang atau bone marrow ini dalam tubuh manusia
Thứ Sáu, 13 tháng 9, 2013
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Thứ Ba, 10 tháng 9, 2013
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Thứ Năm, 5 tháng 9, 2013
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Thứ Sáu, 2 tháng 8, 2013
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Thứ Năm, 1 tháng 8, 2013
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Oke, sebelumnya adalah tahap persiapan
Pelajari dan
Model Pembelajaran Explicit Instructions
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Thứ Tư, 31 tháng 7, 2013
Model Pembelajaran Student Teams Achievement Divisions (STAD)
Model Pembelajaran STAD
Dalam catatan kali ini, maznoer ingin membahas tentang model pembelajaran kooperatif tipe Student Teams Achievement Divisions (STAD). Menurut Slavin (terjemahan Rusman, 2011:213) model Student Team Achievement Divisions (STAD) merupakan variasi pembelajaran kooperatif yang paling banyak diteliti. Model Student Team Achievement Divisions (STAD) juga sangat mudah
Thứ Hai, 29 tháng 7, 2013
Download PES 2013 (PS3)
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Screenshoot:
Chủ Nhật, 28 tháng 7, 2013
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Thứ Bảy, 27 tháng 7, 2013
Jangan Pernah Meremehkan Hal Sekecil Apapun
Di posting kali ini maznoer hanya ingin curhat aja,, hehee. "Jangan pernah meremehkan hal sekecil apapun", kira-kira itulah kata-kata yang cocok untuk hal yang pernah aku alami beberapa hari yang lalu. Gara-gara meremehkan salah satu mata kuliah, tepatnya Analisis Rial II nilai aku C.
Ceritanya gini, waktu kuliah semester 6 ada mata kuliah namanya Analisis Rial II yang di ampu oleh dosen saya
Ceritanya gini, waktu kuliah semester 6 ada mata kuliah namanya Analisis Rial II yang di ampu oleh dosen saya
Chủ Nhật, 21 tháng 7, 2013
Cerita Lucu - Pesuruh Kantor yang Terkenal
Mamat, pesuruh di kantor kami dikenal suka omong gede, ngakunya kenal
sama semua orang beken di negeri ini. Tingkahnya itu kadang-kadang
ngeselin. Suatu waktu, boss-nya penasaran dan ingin membuktikan
bualannya.
"Oke boss" kata si Mamat, "sebutin aja deh nama orangnya yang ane kagak kenal."
"Coba buktiin you kenal nggak sama si Meriem Bellina."
"Beres boss. ‘Yuk kita ke pengadilan. Maklum
sama semua orang beken di negeri ini. Tingkahnya itu kadang-kadang
ngeselin. Suatu waktu, boss-nya penasaran dan ingin membuktikan
bualannya.
"Oke boss" kata si Mamat, "sebutin aja deh nama orangnya yang ane kagak kenal."
"Coba buktiin you kenal nggak sama si Meriem Bellina."
"Beres boss. ‘Yuk kita ke pengadilan. Maklum
Thứ Năm, 18 tháng 7, 2013
Download Lagu Fatin Shidqia Lubis - KekasihMU mp3 Gratis
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Seperti judul post ini,, Download Lagu Fatin
Thứ Hai, 8 tháng 7, 2013
Lirik Lagu A Little too Not Over You by David Archuleta
Lirik Lagu A Little too Not Over You by David Archuleta
American Idol Artist, David Archuleta
It never crossed my mind at all
That’s what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You’re better off with someone else
It’s for the best
I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You’re with him now
I just can’t figure it out
Tell me why
You’re
American Idol Artist, David Archuleta
It never crossed my mind at all
That’s what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You’re better off with someone else
It’s for the best
I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You’re with him now
I just can’t figure it out
Tell me why
You’re
Empat Daftar 'Dosa' Minuman Bersoda
Cuaca panas, godaan untuk membasahi mulut dan tenggorokan dengan minuman manis bersoda begitu besar. Tapi mengkonsumsi minuman satu ini sebaiknya tak terlalu sering Anda lakukan.
Tim peneliti dari Universitas Osaka, Jepang menemukan kalau minum minuman bersoda berlebihan bisa memicu penyakit serius. Salah satunya adalah serangan stroke, gangguan jantung asma dan kerusakan gigi. Penasaran
Kisah Penyebar Virus HIV di Dunia Virtual
Seorang pria dengan sengaja terjangkit virus HIV, untuk mendapatkan
sensasi seksual yang menggila dan menakjubkan. Nick namanya. Menurutnya,
ratusan orang di Inggris berkumpul dalam forum online, Facebook dan
Twitter untuk menyebarkan virus mematikan tersebut, melalui hubungan
seks.
Sebelumnya, para ahli juga telah memperingatkan tentang
tren baru di mana orang-orang, mencari dan
Chủ Nhật, 7 tháng 7, 2013
WASPADA, Internat Anda Diintai Amerika
Pesawat yang membawa Presiden Bolivia, Evo Morales, dari Moskow, Rusia,
harus turun di Wina, Austria, Selasa 2 Juli 2013. Bahan bakarnya cekak,
dan celakanya tak bisa terbang memutar menghindari wilayah udara
Prancis dan Portugal. Entah apa sebabnya, dua negara Eropa itu tiba-tiba
tak mengizinkan pesawat ini terbang di langit mereka.
Ironis.
Pesawat Morales harus mencium landasan di
Thứ Tư, 19 tháng 6, 2013
10 tangga lagu GALAU barat
10 tangga lagu GALAU barat - Galau, mengapa harus galau?? Hidup harus kuat, jalani semuanya dengan senyuman. Omong-omong sial galau, berikut ada 10 daftar lagu barat yang galau, mungkin dari mas-mas atau mbak-mbak udah pernah tahu lagunya. Berikut adalah lagu-lagunya :
1. Adele - someone like you
2. Aerosmith - i dont wanna miss a thing
3. Air Supply - goodbye dan Air Supply - making
1. Adele - someone like you
2. Aerosmith - i dont wanna miss a thing
3. Air Supply - goodbye dan Air Supply - making
Thứ Hai, 29 tháng 4, 2013
Ciri-Ciri Orang Pintar
Ciri-Ciri Orang Pintar
Murid: "Pak, mengapa rambut Bapak kian lama kok kian sedikit, sudah hampir-hampir botak nih."
Guru: "Hal ini menunjukkan bahwa diriku super pintar."
Murid: "Kalau begitu rambutku nanti kucukur plontos saja."
Guru: "Tindakanmu ini namanya sok pintar."
Sumber
Pengalaman Pertama Sopir Taksi
Humor - Pengalaman Pertama Sopir Taksi
Setelah berjalan sekian lama, penumpang menepuk pundak sopir taksi untuk
menanyakan sesuatu. Reaksinya sungguh tak terduga. Sopir taksi begitu
terkejutnya sampai tak sengaja menginjak gas lebih dalam dan hampir saja
menabrak mobil lain. Akhirnya ia bisa menguasai kemudi dan menghentikan
mobilnya di pinggir jalan.
"Tolong, jangan sekali-sekali
Anak Sulit Memahami Matematika? Ajari dengan Gerakan Tangan
Saat tangan kita bergerak, ada gelombang sederhana
pada tangan yang dapat meragsang otak sehingga meningkatkan kemampuan
matematika anak.
(Ilustrasi/Thinkstock)
Gerakan tangan saat menerangkan pelajaran
matematika kepada anak ternyata memberikan pengaruh positif terhadap
kemampuan berpikir mereka. Saat tangan kita bergerak, ternyata terdapat
sebuah gelombang sederhana pada
Thứ Bảy, 27 tháng 4, 2013
My future? (Related images, included)
“People take different roads seeking fulfilment and happiness. Just because they’re not on your road doesn’t mean they’ve gotten lost.”
So, on chatango, I tend to get a lot of guys in their 20's, maybe a few in their early 30's, who will ask me what I'm doing with my life persistently. Today I chatted with a man from Singapore who asked me if I was in college and proceeded to ask why and insist college is good for my future despite my already mentioning that I can't afford it. I mean, it's nice that you seem to be so concerned about my future and education but why are you so concerned, anyway? I mean, we're total strangers, you know nothing about me, so... why does it matter?
So, here is my life right now:
I'm in a rut. I'm lazy and have allergies and asthma and clinical depression and currently I am concerned with dealing with those first, especially the depression. I don't have a job, and I don't know what I want to do in terms of a career and making a living. I don't actually have an interest in going to college, I've had my fill of school and if one day I do want to attend college, fine, maybe then I'll go, but it's just not something I would like to deal with right now. Plus, I mean, like I stated before, I can't afford it, and I don't want to deal with the stress and pressure of student loans. I have an idea of what I want in life, where I want to be, but for right now I'm just trying to figure out how to get there.
And by pressuring me you're essentially making it harder to figure it out. I need my own time and space to figure myself out, what I want for my future and all of that stuff. You can't honestly expect someone to figure that stuff out by the time they're 18, can you? That's ludicrous and way too much pressure because for a lot of people, when you turn 18 and don't have a fucking clue as to what you want and where you want to go, you're looked at like you're a failure.
Like, due to my current state, my dad looks down on me, insisting that unless I get a job I don't want, or marry a very rich guy, I won't be able to survive on my own once my parents die. That's so shitty of you to say or imply, do you realize that? That's NOT motivating, that's making me feel shitty about myself, my capabilities, and my life.
It's like giving someone an incredibly long list of things that they want to do and then giving them 5 minutes to choose something when that's not even enough time to read the whole list. I am 20 years old, not 45. Not 32. Not in my 50's or 60's. 20. I am still pretty young and I would like time to think about my own life, rather than being pressured from a young age to figure it out to the point where I find myself in a job I hate, feeling miserable. I don't want that, that's a shitty life. I don't give a single fuck about being rich, or having a big ass house and amazing clothes and thousands of shoes and a cool car. I want a life where I'm happy, in a house that I love, with a car that gets me to where I need to be, with someone I adore and want to spend my life with, and I'm not only happy, I'm content and like where I am, and I'm not going to get that by listening to everyone saying 'get a job, or go to school'.
First and foremost, while I'm figuring out what I want, and where I want to be, I want to travel. With my friends. Around the country or even the world. I want to see as much as I can before I settle down with a career. I want this:
"People will kill you over time, and how they’ll kill you is with tiny, harmless phrases, like “be realistic." --Dylan Moran
The last thing I need is to go through life with a job and having settled down at an early age, never having done what I wanted to do because people told me to be realistic and put pressure on me to do things NOW and then sit down one day and look back on it all and just be filled with this overwhelming regret and resent and wish I could just go back and change everything.
"ive lost all motivation to do anything these days and people dont understand they just tell me to get motivated yeah sure let me go down to the store and grab a bottle of purpose in life"
"im stressed because i don’t want to be a nurse or a teacher or a lawyer i just want to read books and listen to music and travel and drink coffee but there’s so much pressure to become successful in terms of money and my career and i don’t want to do any of that"
"Does anyone else find it odd that our society expects 14-year-old kids to know what jobs they will want for the rest of their lives, but doesn’t believe an adult woman when she says she doesn’t want to be a mother?"
"i hate how you’re just born out of nowhere and you’re forced to go to school and get education so you can get a job what if i wanted to be a duck"
"i dont like the fact that u are literally forced into this world with no choice whatsoever and then youre forced to do all this school and work and job stuff its just kind of dumb"






My Abusive Ex-Boyfriend
Back in December, I decided to contact my ex, Brian, to question him about all the sexual things he would attempt to do when I was sleeping and couldn't say no.
He'd touch me through my panties, and put his mouth on my breasts, and he'd even hump me. I don't ever think his dick was out when he was dry humping me, though, so that's good... I guess.
However, he can remember touching me, but he tried to excuse the humping saying that he doesn't remember it, or that he was probably doing it in his sleep. I made a post on one of my tumblrs the day we had the conversation. I'll insert that here:
Since I've had some time to think since that conversation, I want to adress things he said to me:
So... yeah. The purpose of this post is to ask, was I sexually abused? Does this count as molestation?
Also, Brian, if you ever read this: you're a piece of shit, and I hope nobody ever ends up with you, you don't deserve a relationship.
And also, I found a post on tumblr today that is very relevant to this:
So, if you're anything like Brian, or you're abusive in general to your significant other

He'd touch me through my panties, and put his mouth on my breasts, and he'd even hump me. I don't ever think his dick was out when he was dry humping me, though, so that's good... I guess.
However, he can remember touching me, but he tried to excuse the humping saying that he doesn't remember it, or that he was probably doing it in his sleep. I made a post on one of my tumblrs the day we had the conversation. I'll insert that here:
"I was feeling curious after watching all these video responses to Jenna Marbles latest video, and so I contacted my ex, asking him what exactly he's done to me in my sleep during all the times we dated.
If you didn't know, and probably don't, my ex, who was my first boyfriend ever, pressured me into sex multiple times (but I never had sex with him) and touched me in my sleep sometimes (rubbing my crotch through my panties, sucking on my breasts) whenever I would sleep over at his house. He even humped me a couple times. I know this because I would wake up sometimes while he was doing this stuff and then not do anything about it. Partly because I was really fucking tired and was just like 'wtf?' I didn't like it or enjoy it, I just didn't know what I could do about it, y'know? Does that make sense? I mean there were times I rolled over to make him stop but he'd just do it again another time. He even said one time when I woke up and he was rubbing my crotch through my panties, that while he was doing that, I was moaning. First of all, can I contest that I was not moaning consciously as I was asleep when this apparently occured, and that 'moaning' in my sleep in no way means I enjoyed it, or wanted it. I do not control what I say or what noises I make in my sleep.
Besides that, He broke up with me 2 times as a joke, and let his best friend bully me and treat me like shit.
He'd also call me a whore a lot despite my saying stop and that I don't like it.
Here is the messages:
His picture isn't shown because shortly after this I blocked him.
He's shrugging it off because it's been about 3 years since I left him, so apparently it's less important than it would have been if I confronted him about it right as it was happening. Which I actually did a few times, but even then he still acted like it was nothing or he just said sorry and acted like that fixed everything and that if I got upset and cried about it, that was stupid. Honestly, I just couldn't bring myself to do anything about it then because I felt like nobody would care, and it was nothing and that people had been through far worse, which I'm sure lots of people have, but I wanted answers. I wanted him to acknowledge what he's done and honestly if he expects me to not get just a little angry over the bullshit he's put me through, and he doesn't realize how damaging what he did can be, then that just adds to the problem.
And if he really did hump me in his sleep, or was asleep while doing so, fine. I get that you can't control your actions when you're sleeping, but that doesn't make it any less wrong."
Since I've had some time to think since that conversation, I want to adress things he said to me:
- Sleeping in the same bed does not permit you to touch me without my permission.
- Touching me in my sleep in a sexual manner because you wouldn't be allowed to do so when I was awake is 'inappropriate' and weird, it's pathetic that you can't see that.
- You didn't love me. I can tell you didn't love me, but you had convinced yourself you did. You know how I know? Because you hurt me, a lot, and then passed it off as a joke and never tried to make up for it. You don't even know what's inappropriate and weird in a relationship for christ's sake. You don't hurt the people you love, and if you do, you need to get your shit checked because they deserve better.
- It's funny to me how you could just forget something like that and then try to change the subject. I clearly wasn't there for chit chat and catching up.
- Whether or not it happened 3 years ago, or last week, it's still a problem. You're not the one who had to deal with this, I AM, so fuck yeah I can get mad all I want.
- I was implying that if you can't remember humping me, what else have you 'forgotten'? What else could you possibly have done to me while I was sleeping, that I didn't wake up during? I'll never fucking know, and I hate that. I will never forgive you.
So... yeah. The purpose of this post is to ask, was I sexually abused? Does this count as molestation?
Also, Brian, if you ever read this: you're a piece of shit, and I hope nobody ever ends up with you, you don't deserve a relationship.
And also, I found a post on tumblr today that is very relevant to this:
"the shit about abusers is, they have no recollection of how they've been abusive coz its as normal as breathing to them. you will remember exactly how they scarred you and they'll be like “geez, it was whatever long ago, who cares?” or “i dont remember that at all”while you nurse psychological wounds for decades over it."
So, if you're anything like Brian, or you're abusive in general to your significant other

You Should Smile More *rant*
I get this all the time from strangers on OkCupid, Chatango, even Tumblr and I hate it. It's the most irritating thing in the world. Why? Why should I smile more? What difference does it make to you if I do or don't?
I don't like my smile, never have. Maybe I never will. I think it looks weird, and I think my face looks weird when I smile. Plus, I don't have good teeth, which I'm trying to work on, and I'm getting work done on them in the summer but that's besides the point.
Maybe I like how I look better when I'm not smiling. Which is big for me because I don't like how I look at all, honestly. It's taken me years to get my self esteem where it is now, y'know?
Honestly, sometimes I feel like Kristen Stewart with all this 'smile more' bullshit because she gets scrutinized for her facial expressions. (I like Kristen Stewart, btw. I like her acting, and who she is as a person.)
Here, let me quote her:
"Some people get the wrong idea, you know. If you’re quiet and you’re just not the most gregarious person, that you’re like.. I don’t know, self-involved, rude possibly, frigid. I get that a lot from people who don’t know me, like online all you guys think I never smile, ever. It’s not true. I do smile sometimes.”
”I think it’s ridiculous that you need to look a certain way to be conventionally pretty.”And it's not like I don't smile, because I do, I just don't take pictures of it, because I don't like my smile. I know some people are just being nice or trying to make me happier or something, but please, just stop. I'm only going to be hesitant more about smiling if you put pressure on me to do it, or are pushy about it. I'd rather smile and have it be genuine, than smile because it's what people want me to do, or I feel like I have to.
Do you honestly think you're a good mother???
My best friend, Meg, has a very Christian mother. Devout, I should say. Meg is borderline atheist, if not one already. She's not completely sure of what she believes in and that's fine, IMO. However, for her mom, this is not acceptable. I met meg 3 years ago, and that was at a time where her mother was so adamant about what she would believe in that she threw 'holy' water on her, and claimed the devil had possessed her and told her to act like this, and when Meg decided to come out to her mom as being Atheist, her mother locked her out of the house and she had to wait outside for 8 hours for her father to come home from work and let her back in.
I asked Meg if she'd be willing to make a list of things her mother had done to her since she was a child (we're on skype, don't mind the timestamps or her screenname):
Now, a few months ago Meg decided she would come out about her past in order to seek help from relatives or authorities and she came out about her father molesting her when she was little and the relatives on her fathers side, of course, didn't believe her. Her dad was removed from the home for a short period of time in order for CPS to investigate, talk with her mother and her and all that and he would refuse to take a lie detector test. Her mother upon finding out, from Meg, that he had done this said 'I suspected as much, but I didn't do anything'. She then proceeded to convince CPS that Meg was lying and just wanted attention and managed to get her dad brought back into her home. While he was away her little sister and mother blamed her for everything. Yvette, her sister, would say she was being selfish and making stuff up and that she was ruining everything. They treated her like she was crazy and called her a liar.
In mid october 2012, she uploaded a video to youtube explaining what she was going through at the time and posted the video to her tumblr with the description:
Lately her mother has been spouting things like 'You must learn to forgive' and 'Treat others as you would have them treat you'. Honestly, the latter statement is just beyond hypocritical it's amazing she can't see that and there's, IMO, some people that just should not be forgiven. You don't deserve it and you can't just ask someone to excuse all your actions like that. It's not reasonable. Own up to your mistakes and if you really want to be forgiven for all the stuff you've done, earn it.
EDIT (3/24/13): Her mother started making jabs at her again today, going so far as to make her cry saying:
Look lady, you're not being supportive or motivating. In fact, that's the opposite of motivating. You may not think writing is amazing but for other people it can lead to all kinds of stuff; an escape, a way to vent, a way to express yourself. She's not wasting her life away. It allows her to get out her feelings and feel better, which is more than I can say for you. I hate, do you hear me, HATE it when my father talks down to me the way her mother just talked down to her. First of fucking all, you just called your kid worthless, saying to their face that they have nothing to offer anyone. Do you know what kind of damage that could do? DO YOU? Probably not. Second of all, do not EVER sign your kid up for anything WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION. That's invasive and you're forcing them to do something they don't want to, which can lead to resentment. You're not allowing her to figure out what SHE wants to do with her life. Stop making your kid feel bad for not being what you would consider successful. She's 17. Now, I could understand you talking to her like that if she was, say, in her 30's but she's a teenager. You're seriously going to stand there with your snarky attitude and act like someone who's been on this planet for less than 2 decades should figure out what she wants to do for the rest of her life and then act like all she's good for is some fast food restaurant?
Does someone have to use small words and talk slowly when telling you you're a bad parent, or will that not even work? You are so blind to how badly you make her feel about herself and her life it's ridiculous. If anything, her so-called "failure" is your fault. Not hers. YOURS. You have beat her down her whole life verbally and emotionally, talking down to her, being condescending, acting like a know-it-all, and yet, you expect her to just be sooooo successful and happy regardless, you CLEARLY, know nothing about psychology, or about your own fucking daughter.
Did you even pay attention to anything she wrote in her poems? Did you? Did you analyze them and figure out anything about her from them? Probably not, instead you focused on the fact that she wrote them and decided she was just angry, blamed it on the people she knows online and decided to get her a new fucking therapist and force her to take EVEN MORE medication, and stronger meds at that. What the actual fuck?
Plus, I mean, you don't even get why it's bad that you snooped in the first place. Comparing to looking through your childs files to that of your child looking through your clothes. Those files are personal and so private. Clothes are not the same thing as poems filled with your childs hidden emotions that you don't have the capacity or ability to understand. It is understandable to want to know and understand how your daughter is feeling but there are way to go about it that are wrong, and there are ways to go about it that are right and unfortunately you've done nothing but choose the ways that are wrong.
You might go so far as to say 'Oh, don't teach me how to parent', well then, be a better parent.
Your snide bullshit comments do nothing for Meg. They don't help her, they don't motivate her. YOU'RE MAKING HER DEPRESSION WORSE. It fucking amazes me how blind you are to that.
There's honestly not much I can do for Meg, but I'd like to. I want to travel the country and maybe the world with her, and get a place with her to just get her out of that house. However, as you might have guessed, we met online and I am currently unable to do anything for her. I've talked to my mom about letting her stay with us but my parents can't afford another person moving in and we don't have any extra rooms or anything.
She turns 18 in June, and then I don't know what. I just would like for her to have a better life and I made this post because I want to show people that if you're going through something like this, you're not alone. Also, if you're a mother and you do this kind of stuff with your kids, stop it. They don't deserve that and you can think you're making them a better person all you want, but you're not. You're ruining their lives. You're hurting them. You're damaging them and you really have no idea what that could do to them emotionally, mentally, psychologically.
Just a word of advice, if you are, in any way, a shitty human being, please, PLEASE, do not reproduce. No child should EVER have to grow up dealing with you.
EDIT: OMG, I just found THE perfect post on tumblr to go with this:
I asked Meg if she'd be willing to make a list of things her mother had done to her since she was a child (we're on skype, don't mind the timestamps or her screenname):
"I mean some of the big things were that she sent me convinced doctors to send me to the hospital for irrational thinkingShe emotionally manipulates Meg, threatens her using mental hospitals as a scape goat. 'Do this or you'll be sent to the hospital! You use the internet too much, I should send you to the hospital!'
When I just wanted to live with my aunt
She also forced medicine on me, if I didn't take it, she took EVERYTHING away
Everything that I cared for
When I was younger, she was extremely threatening. I was scared shitless of her. She would always say "Don't make mean mommy come out".. And once she said that, I immediately obeyed, because if I did anything after that, she would haul me up to the bathroom and spank me on my bare ass that it left bruises I think.
She said "Go ahead, they won't beileve you, and even if they did, you would be taken into a home and really be abused and raped and tortured like ALL foster kids are"
[9:11:43 AM] marry me nao omg: Whenever I didn't go to church, she would immediately say how I was possessed by the devil. She's thrown holy water on me numerous occasion saying "Demon begone from my child"
[9:12:29 AM] marry me nao omg: She's been a notorious dream killer. Even my father and sister agree with that. Whenever you have an idea, she instantly bashes it down with "Oh well we're talking about reality here. You can't do that"
[9:12:57 AM | Edited 9:13:05 AM] marry me nao omg: And whenever you say about how it's not really reality she's talking about but stupidity, she says "You don't know about reality, you've never lived in it"
[9:13:31 AM] marry me nao omg: She's constantly doubted my intelligence, by putting me in basic classes whenever I wanted to be in higher classes."
"Go ahead, they won't beileve you, and even if they did, you would be taken into a home and really be abused and raped and tortured like ALL foster kids are"Sure, there are foster homes that are abusive and torturous to the kids they take in. However, that is simply NOT the case for every single foster home. Though I'm sure that was just an attempt to scare Meg into not wanting to be in foster care so you could keep her under your control and not ruin the image you have for yourself outside your home, right?
"[9:14:16 AM] marry me nao omg: And whenever I told her something I knew (even if it was something stupid) she would say "How smart are you?" in a really impressed tone.
[9:14:26 AM] marry me nao omg: Which pissed me off because it was what idiots could come up with.
[9:15:05 AM] marry me nao omg: In class in elementary school, she would go to all of my friend's little art projects and compliment them with how wonderful they were.
[9:15:12 AM] marry me nao omg: But she would look at mine, and start criticizing it
[9:15:16 AM] marry me nao omg: Infront of me.
[9:15:36 AM] marry me nao omg: She's done that to my little sister too, so she hasn't changed at all.
[9:16:03 AM] marry me nao omg: Whenever I lost my toys, she would always claim that there was a lady that came into the house and stole my toys because I was a bad girl.
[9:16:28 AM] marry me nao omg: She's very irrational, doesn't believe in evolution and believes in everything the bible says.
[9:16:33 AM] marry me nao omg: Despite being a scientist.
[9:16:59 AM] marry me nao omg: Whenever you try to argue about religion, (AND EVEN IF IT WASN'T AN ARGUMENT, IF YOU MENTIONED THAT OTHER PEOPLE BELIEVED IN OTHER THINGS) she would say how they're worshipping devils
[9:17:03 AM] marry me nao omg: And how they were going to go to hell
[9:17:29 AM] marry me nao omg: And literally almost every conversation I had with her turned into a religious lecture about how I should let jesus into my life."
"[9:17:40 AM] marry me nao omg: Literally anything, I did an experiment one day. I was having breakfast.
[9:18:06 AM] marry me nao omg: She asked if I had any tests that day or something
[9:18:19 AM | Edited 9:18:25 AM] marry me nao omg: And she said 'you should pray that you do well on the test, jesus will help you"
[9:18:38 AM] marry me nao omg: and I would say "but it's my responsiblity, not Jesus'"
[9:18:53 AM] marry me nao omg: And she would say dumb shit like "But Jesus gave you the knowledge to make you do well on the test"
[9:18:59 AM] marry me nao omg: Eveything was about God. fucking everything.
[9:19:13 AM] marry me nao omg: I stopped talking to her for periods of time
[9:19:34 AM] marry me nao omg: She would accuse that I hated her, and how she birthed me and how I should be appreciative of everything that she's ever done.
[9:19:51 AM] marry me nao omg: She forced me into many things that I didn't want to do. Like piano.
[9:20:01 AM] marry me nao omg: Wasting so much money on lessons that i TOLD HER THAT I DID NOT WANT.
[9:20:02 AM] marry me nao omg: THAT I HATED IT.
[9:20:16 AM] marry me nao omg: "You're still going, we're paying for it, you'll appreciate it in the future"
[9:20:26 AM] marry me nao omg: Soon I just stopped giving a fuck, and didn't practice at all.
[9:20:34 AM] marry me nao omg: The teacher absolutely hated me.
[9:20:50 AM] marry me nao omg: Dropped me as a student.
[9:21:12 AM] marry me nao omg: Thinking of the stuff she's recently done.
[9:21:22 AM] marry me nao omg: She's gone through my phone, taken it literally when I was sleeping.
[9:21:29 AM] marry me nao omg: Or just grabbed it out of my hands and ran off with it
[9:21:42 AM] marry me nao omg: She's gone through my computer while I was in the bathroom and left it open
[9:21:58 AM] marry me nao omg: and looked through my documents and then decided that she wanted to take everything away AGAIN.
[9:22:14 AM] marry me nao omg: Because that's the only thing she knows how to do for discipline, she doesn't try to understand. You have no word. You try to speak but she cuts you off.
[9:22:45 AM] marry me nao omg: You ask her what her reason is for anything, she'll just say "It's because I said so. What about the commandments saying that you should obey your mother and father? You need to go to confession"
[9:22:58 AM] marry me nao omg: And then the next day she would do a guilt trip on me saying how sorry she was.
[9:23:11 AM] marry me nao omg: Give me anything that I wanted, and I would basically forgive her.
[9:23:17 AM] marry me nao omg: But she does the exact same shit over and over again.
[9:24:30 AM] marry me nao omg: Back when I was in school, and had a problem with anything (like math or something) she would say "You spend too much time watching tv and hanging out with friends, you need to study 24/7 now"
[9:24:40 AM] marry me nao omg: and gave me all these problems for me to work out
[9:24:54 AM] marry me nao omg: But I didn't really know how to solve them, because she never taught me anything lol
[9:25:19 AM] marry me nao omg: And then she would question me when I got them wrong: "Why did you get these wrong? You need to do more problems!"
[9:25:41 AM] marry me nao omg: She would never EVER let me cut my hair
[9:25:47 AM] marry me nao omg: Saying that long hair was God's will
[9:25:54 AM] marry me nao omg: And quote some stupid shit from the bible
[9:26:17 AM] marry me nao omg: Whenever I cut or trimmed my hair myself, she would tell me how horrible it looks and unflattering.
[9:26:27 AM] marry me nao omg: Even though I thought it looked nice, and random people TOLD ME IT LOOKED NICE.
[9:27:00 AM] marry me nao omg: And when I mean random, like strangers that I would go somewhere, and they would come up with me and say "Wow, I really like your hair, where did you get it cut?"
[9:27:37 AM] marry me nao omg: She bought all my clothes, clothes that looked childish and hated. Clothes that I would eventually be picked on for.
[9:27:59 AM] marry me nao omg: And I hated shopping with her, because whenver I said that I liked something she said "Oh, well let's be honest here, are you really going to wear it?"
[9:29:02 AM] marry me nao omg: Whenever I questioned her horrid fashion sense she would say
[9:29:16 AM] marry me nao omg: "I know what kids are wearing, and I was always fashionable in high school"
[9:29:33 AM] marry me nao omg: Lol, says the person who apparently had no friends in high school and ate lunch in the bathroom.
[9:29:52 AM] marry me nao omg: She ate lunch in the bathroom because she thought people were watching her eat.
[9:29:55 AM] marry me nao omg: Extremely paranoid.
So in the end, she didn't let me do much without major consequences.
[9:30:56 AM] marry me nao omg: I was trapped, I hated bringing people to my house because of my mother mainly. "
Now, a few months ago Meg decided she would come out about her past in order to seek help from relatives or authorities and she came out about her father molesting her when she was little and the relatives on her fathers side, of course, didn't believe her. Her dad was removed from the home for a short period of time in order for CPS to investigate, talk with her mother and her and all that and he would refuse to take a lie detector test. Her mother upon finding out, from Meg, that he had done this said 'I suspected as much, but I didn't do anything'. She then proceeded to convince CPS that Meg was lying and just wanted attention and managed to get her dad brought back into her home. While he was away her little sister and mother blamed her for everything. Yvette, her sister, would say she was being selfish and making stuff up and that she was ruining everything. They treated her like she was crazy and called her a liar.
In mid october 2012, she uploaded a video to youtube explaining what she was going through at the time and posted the video to her tumblr with the description:
"This video is only a mere summary of my current problems. I suffer from severe clinical depression and anxiety.Her mom says she's addicted to the computer, the internet moreso, and to be honest, that is quite possible but there's a reason. The people she trusts are only accessible to her online, on skype, because she feels that the majority of the people she knows irl do not care enough to want to deal with her, that her parents will just insist that she would need a therapist and better medication, maybe a stay at the mental hospital. Friends she had in school slowly started to leave her because of her 'drama', and as far as I know, she only has a small amount of people she really trusts irl. The internet, the computer, is her escape, an outlet, a way she freely express herself without the backlash of her parents and sister, and her mother is constantly threatening to take it away from her saying that an addiction to her computer will not be helpful to her mental illnesses, and while that may be true for some people, it's not for her. She is somewhat of a recluse, not against going out, but not exactly allowed to much either. She uses the internet to write her poetry, her thoughts, to meet people all around the world and speak to her friends and feel better. IMHO, I feel it's helping her more than not. However, her mother recently read a not-so-accurate book about depression and has decided she understands it fully, which is her attitude about basically everything. She's a know-it-all.
Used to take four medications daily, three antidepressants and one anxiety medication at nearly their highest dosages: Hydroxizine, Prozac, Abilify, Wellbuitran
At a very young age, I knew what profanities meant, since my father used it frequently in the house at everything. He called me and my mother by those names too.
Things got worse. He started to touch me very inappropriately, and still to this day he denies it. But I can recall to you in detail all the times he did. I didn’t know it was wrong, all I knew at that age was that it was a game my father and I used to play.
My mother used to ask me at the age of 8, “Sweetie, if daddy ever touches you where youre not supposed to be touched, please tell mommy and mommy will get him help”
I lied everytime. I saw how much my parents loved eachother and wanted them to be together.
I went to a new school at the age of 7, and started first grade. Through that elementary school, I was bullied due to a speech impediment I had. At this time my father was still molesting me.
I was ten when he finally stopped, because I used to push him away and tell him to stop.
My grades suffered due to undiagnosed depression, and my father would scream at me where my assignments were, and why they were late. I would cry so hard I started to hyperventilate, and lock myself up in the bathroom while he would still yell at me and bang on the door.
It was when I was a freshman in high school that I started to become extremely insecure of my appearance. I hated my hair, so I wore a wig to school everyday. No one knew except my family, and my mother would degrade me for hating my body so much. I never self starved at that age, I already viewed myself as being too thin actually, and wanted to eat more so I could get ‘curvy’. But it never really worked out that way, and it would always go to my stomach, making me look pregnant.
It was next year, sophomore year, when I crashed. I was overwhelmed with work, I was angry and furious with myself because I thought I was disappointing my parents who I loved deeply. I was unresponsive.
I started to ignore my friends, and not talk to them. I ate lunch alone. My teachers were concerned about me, and started emailing my parents as to what was up. When my parents questioned me what the hell was going on, I just looked down at my feet and went upstairs to my room.
It was that December during Christmas Break when I attempted suicide for the first time. I was caught by my mother though, and she cried as she took me to the doctor. That’s when they diagnosed me with severe depression.
I was put on antidepressants and had a therapist.
I dropped out of school at 15 and was homeschooling myself. I spent those next 6 months in almost complete isolation. I didn’t leave my house or talk for the next 6 months. I spent time alone in my room while my parents would bring me my food.. The only time I would step out of the room was to go to the bathroom or shower. I studied on the computer, and in the meantime made some friends who were actually going through some hard times aswell.
My mother and father were still emotionally abusive though and thought of me as a failure. I tried to run away one day. I packed my bags, called up an aunt of mine that lived a few states away telling her that I was taking taxi/bus rides to her house. She betrayed me and told my parents. My parents then admitted me to the mental hospital for ‘irrational thinking’. I spent six days there since the doctors couldn’t find anything wrong with me besides depression. I didn’t make friends and only liked the fact that I was away from my parents.
After I got out, my parents took away everything. The phones, the computers, they even tried to take away the cable. They told me internet was the source of all evil, and that it was the reason why they took it away, even though all my dear friends were online, they claimed them to not be real friends, but only pedophiles that wanted me, which I knew wasn’t true.
My parents forced me to go back to school that year. They threatened that if I didn’t get out of bed, they were going to call the truant officer and that he would bring me to school and walk me to every class. I obeyed, and went.
This school year, which would be my senior year, I dropped out of high school again because they told me that with my few credits, it would take roughly two to three years for me to graduate.
I dropped out for good this time, and am just at home, trying to find a job. I doubt I can be anything more than a nursing assistant with the way things have been.
When I told my friends that I dropped out of school, they left aswell, claiming that I was far too troublesome and they didn’t want to associate with someone who didn’t have anything going for them. I was devastated when they said this, especially one because she was one of my oldest friends, who I trusted so much, and thought of as a sister.
I still have a few friends in the area, they however are far too busy with school now to have time for me. So I spend all my time in the house, or at the therapist still.
About a week ago I finally told my mother about the way my father sexual molested me as a child.. Her exact words “I expected as much, but I never did anything”.
I didn’t know how to feel, I felt like complete shit that she pretty much knew all along that he was doing this to her child. I blame my parents for my depression, for almost everything that’s happened.
My father completely denies everything. I told my therapist about what had happened, and she made a call to CPS. They questioned me a few days ago, and on that day I was almost taken away by social services. Instead however, my father was ordered to be removed from the home. My mother and my dad’s side of the family blame me for everything that’s happened so far. My parents are in tough financial times and can barely afford a lawyer, let alone pay the bills of the house.
We’re going to have to move for the first time since I was born. I feel awful to have separated my family with coming out with this just now. It hurts like hell, and people who I have talked to say I shouldn’t care what they look at me as. But they’re still my parents. I still love them.
In the end of my story, I attempted suicide 9 times, tried to run away four times, went to the mental ward once, and almost went to juvy for trying to run away.
When I look in the mirror, I don’t see a failure exactly, I see a person who is trying to get back on their feet. I don’t want people to pity me, I don’t see what I’ve been through as that severe. There are people who have been sexually trafficked from a young age, have gotten into drugs. That was not me, but it could have been, so I consider myself lucky for all I have."
Lately her mother has been spouting things like 'You must learn to forgive' and 'Treat others as you would have them treat you'. Honestly, the latter statement is just beyond hypocritical it's amazing she can't see that and there's, IMO, some people that just should not be forgiven. You don't deserve it and you can't just ask someone to excuse all your actions like that. It's not reasonable. Own up to your mistakes and if you really want to be forgiven for all the stuff you've done, earn it.
EDIT (3/24/13): Her mother started making jabs at her again today, going so far as to make her cry saying:
"you're wasting your life away just writing, you're not even going to get anywhere with that"
"i'm going to sign you up for mcdonalds so you can get out of the house and make a real living. who knows? maybe they'll accept you"
"i know other places wont, i mean what do you have to offer?"
Look lady, you're not being supportive or motivating. In fact, that's the opposite of motivating. You may not think writing is amazing but for other people it can lead to all kinds of stuff; an escape, a way to vent, a way to express yourself. She's not wasting her life away. It allows her to get out her feelings and feel better, which is more than I can say for you. I hate, do you hear me, HATE it when my father talks down to me the way her mother just talked down to her. First of fucking all, you just called your kid worthless, saying to their face that they have nothing to offer anyone. Do you know what kind of damage that could do? DO YOU? Probably not. Second of all, do not EVER sign your kid up for anything WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION. That's invasive and you're forcing them to do something they don't want to, which can lead to resentment. You're not allowing her to figure out what SHE wants to do with her life. Stop making your kid feel bad for not being what you would consider successful. She's 17. Now, I could understand you talking to her like that if she was, say, in her 30's but she's a teenager. You're seriously going to stand there with your snarky attitude and act like someone who's been on this planet for less than 2 decades should figure out what she wants to do for the rest of her life and then act like all she's good for is some fast food restaurant?
Does someone have to use small words and talk slowly when telling you you're a bad parent, or will that not even work? You are so blind to how badly you make her feel about herself and her life it's ridiculous. If anything, her so-called "failure" is your fault. Not hers. YOURS. You have beat her down her whole life verbally and emotionally, talking down to her, being condescending, acting like a know-it-all, and yet, you expect her to just be sooooo successful and happy regardless, you CLEARLY, know nothing about psychology, or about your own fucking daughter.
Did you even pay attention to anything she wrote in her poems? Did you? Did you analyze them and figure out anything about her from them? Probably not, instead you focused on the fact that she wrote them and decided she was just angry, blamed it on the people she knows online and decided to get her a new fucking therapist and force her to take EVEN MORE medication, and stronger meds at that. What the actual fuck?
Plus, I mean, you don't even get why it's bad that you snooped in the first place. Comparing to looking through your childs files to that of your child looking through your clothes. Those files are personal and so private. Clothes are not the same thing as poems filled with your childs hidden emotions that you don't have the capacity or ability to understand. It is understandable to want to know and understand how your daughter is feeling but there are way to go about it that are wrong, and there are ways to go about it that are right and unfortunately you've done nothing but choose the ways that are wrong.
You might go so far as to say 'Oh, don't teach me how to parent', well then, be a better parent.
Your snide bullshit comments do nothing for Meg. They don't help her, they don't motivate her. YOU'RE MAKING HER DEPRESSION WORSE. It fucking amazes me how blind you are to that.
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She turns 18 in June, and then I don't know what. I just would like for her to have a better life and I made this post because I want to show people that if you're going through something like this, you're not alone. Also, if you're a mother and you do this kind of stuff with your kids, stop it. They don't deserve that and you can think you're making them a better person all you want, but you're not. You're ruining their lives. You're hurting them. You're damaging them and you really have no idea what that could do to them emotionally, mentally, psychologically.
Just a word of advice, if you are, in any way, a shitty human being, please, PLEASE, do not reproduce. No child should EVER have to grow up dealing with you.
EDIT: OMG, I just found THE perfect post on tumblr to go with this:
Me: *Has Social Issues*
Teachers: You're being irrational. Get off the internet for two seconds and realize that.
People at School: You're ridiculous. Stop going on your computer so much and maybe you'll be healthier.
Parents: It's all the internet's fault. It's the root of all evil.
Society: See everyone? The internet is destroying our children.
Internet: You had an anxiety attack today? OMFG ARE YOU OKAY??!!! DO YOU WANT A COOKIE??!! Or would you rather be left alone? How can I help you!??? I WISH I COULD MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER.
Everyone: See, the internet is evil.
Everyone: Now stop with all of your problems or we'll punish you.
Me: ...
Amanda Bynes
So there's so many people who are just so intrigued by Amanda Bynes lately because she's going through a 'change' of sorts where she has, as far as I know, retired from acting, changed her hair, got dimple piercings or whatever they're called and she's supposedly acting out.
Honestly, I have not found a single good reason as to why anything she's doing matters or how she's ruining her life? Ok, she had a few legal troubles a few months back but I don't think she is anymore. She's growing up, she wants to figure out her image and be the person she wants to be and she's not mentally ill for being how she is. It's honestly ridiculous that she's being treated like she has these big bad problems for just living her life the way she wants to.
I mean, if she weren't a celebrity by any means, nobody would think twice about how she dresses and looks and acts because there's plenty of people who are like her on those terms, but just because it's a former child star/celebrity she has to live up to higher standards or else she'll be looked down on and treated like she has a problem.
Just allow her to be who she wants to be. Ugh.
Honestly, I have not found a single good reason as to why anything she's doing matters or how she's ruining her life? Ok, she had a few legal troubles a few months back but I don't think she is anymore. She's growing up, she wants to figure out her image and be the person she wants to be and she's not mentally ill for being how she is. It's honestly ridiculous that she's being treated like she has these big bad problems for just living her life the way she wants to.
I mean, if she weren't a celebrity by any means, nobody would think twice about how she dresses and looks and acts because there's plenty of people who are like her on those terms, but just because it's a former child star/celebrity she has to live up to higher standards or else she'll be looked down on and treated like she has a problem.
Just allow her to be who she wants to be. Ugh.
Hitler
I found a couple posts about Hitler on Tumblr that I thought were interesting that I wanted to share on here:
Several people commented on this saying it made them feel uncomfortable, so someone else commented on it saying
I just thought those comments were interesting.
Did you know that Hitlers mother was actually considering an abortion while pregnant with him but the doctor talked her out of it?
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Hitler flirting with Eva Braun. |
You know what’s so uncomfortable about this? It shows that perhaps one of the most evil men in history, was a human being. That, on occasion, he could be nice, even flirty. That’s not all. You want to see evil people as evil, screaming horrible stuff over a desk with 20 microphones with 20, 000 people saluting them. The evil is clear and recognizable then. This shows a completely different image, it scares you because that means that evil isn’t a stereotype, that evil is not recognizable, that evil could be anyone. It scares you because this shows that could be lurking inside anyone and you’ll never ever know. Maybe in you?Another person added:
does anyone even remember that one time hitler attended that luncheon between world leaders, some guests of which even included china’s socialist leader as well as Stalin. And then when they were ordering, everyone was gladly ordering impressive dishes one after the other, but Hitler placed an order for barley tea and a pheasant (considered a peasant’s meal by standard). When he was questioned as to why he would order something like this in something as grand as a world leader’s congress, he replied,Someone, obviously bothered by what these two people had said posted saying 'WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE' and someone replied with
“I don’t smoke when my people cannot smoke, and I cannot eat when my people are going hungry.”
He wasn’t evil for its own sake, let’s try to remember that despite the countless murders, but for a moment, he did actually believe he was doing something for the good of his countrymen.
No, he’s right. Hitler, though extremely wrong in his views, did everything for what he thought would better the lives of his people. It was wrong. It was disgustingly, horribly wrong. But he did not do it because it was evil and he was evil. He did it because he believed it would help Germany and those who needed a better life. Those who don’t understand or even try to understand the human brain will always label men like him as ‘evil’ because it is easier to accept. But he wasn’t ‘evil.’ He felt love and loyalty and responsibilities. He simply took these aspects and morphed them into a twisted, violent thing.
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The second picture of him is
It recieved various comments, some of which were like
"Do you understand how scary this picture is""god forbid a real person do real person things he wasnt just a robot who killed people jesus fucking christ"
"uh yeah its not like he killed and tortured six million jews or anything"The last comment received this reply
Hold on just a tick. Listen, I’m Jewish, so I’m perfectly capable of understanding that what he did was just…..well, there are no words for it. There is nothing in this world that can truly and fully express that what he did was wrong. But let’s not round it up to simply Jews that got killed. It was six million people that died in those camps, not just Jews. Did you know that homosexuals were sent there, too? Yeah, I’m sure you did. They had to wear special little symbols on their clothes. Do you know what it was? It was a pink triangle.
It was six million PEOPLE.
But you let that roll over in your mind for a while and you are going to forever see this man as a monster, but that’s not what he was. He was someone who thought he was truly doing something right for his nation, no matter how shitty he was doing it. Believe me when I say that I don’t like him. I really don’t. My grandfather’s brothers died in those camps, and my grandfather escaped to Spain, then to Mexico. He was lucky.
This is not a monster holding hands with a little girl.
This is Adolf Hitler, a man, holding hands with a little girl.
Yeah. It’s fucking scary. It really is. Do you know why?
It’s because you’re seeing that he wasn’t, in fact, a monster. You’re seeing in this picture that he was a man. He was a man, and that’s really the saddest part of it all.
I just thought those comments were interesting.
Did you know that Hitlers mother was actually considering an abortion while pregnant with him but the doctor talked her out of it?
Homosexuality, (White) Males, and being over-weight.
This post is kind of all over the place. Sorry about that. I may or may not wind up adding onto it as time goes on.
Homosexuality:
I don't think it's a sin, or wrong, or harmful to children, or should be illegal. It's not a choice, it has no effect on your life. Why does it matter to you that someone else you probably know nothing about is dating someone of the same sex?
It amazes me how some people could be so ignorant as to say it's a choice. Uhm, hello? Who would choose to be gay knowing how badly people get treated because of it? Why would they choose to make their life harder?
Did you choose to be straight?
Will someone please, logically, tell me why it's wrong to be gay? It's a fucking sexuality, they're not monsters.
LOOK AT THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT.










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(White) Males:
I saw a post on tumblr with this image saying:
Luckily, there was someone there to respond to the post, saying:
I mean, really, why does someone being white and male make them someone who can't have issues, or problem? I'm very sure there are assholes who are white males, but that doesn't mean that all white males are assholes. White males can suffer from eating disorders just as much as any other male can. They can be mistreated for their sexuality, how they dress, how they talk just as much as any male can.
A boy of nine who was found hanged is believed to have killed himself after he was ‘bullied for being white’ by an Asian gang at school.
Aaron Dugmore – thought to be one of the youngest children in the UK to commit suicide – was discovered in his bedroom after being tormented for months, his parents said.
They said Aaron was threatened with a plastic knife by one Asian pupil, who warned him: ‘Next time it will be a real one.’
He was also allegedly told by another pupil that ‘all the white people should be dead’ and he was forced to hide from the bullies in the playground at lunchtime.
A nine year old white boy was made to feel guilty about his being white because an 'asian gang' bullied him for it and convinced him it was unacceptable and tormented him because of it to the point where he was hiding during lunchtime. A 9 year old boy. 9 YEAR OLD BOY.
HE KILLED HIMSELF BECAUSE PEOPLE PICKED ON HIM FOR BEING WHITE. I'm sorry, but no nine year old kid should ever have to come to the conclusion that they should end their life because of what people are saying about them, or doing to them. I got picked on so much that by the time i was 10, I wanted to die and if I had any guts, I wouldn't be here right now. It's horrifying to me that kids are contemplating suicide at such young age. It's horrifying to me that anyone gets hurt and picked on to the point where they're contemplating suicide at all.
Homosexuality:
I don't think it's a sin, or wrong, or harmful to children, or should be illegal. It's not a choice, it has no effect on your life. Why does it matter to you that someone else you probably know nothing about is dating someone of the same sex?
It amazes me how some people could be so ignorant as to say it's a choice. Uhm, hello? Who would choose to be gay knowing how badly people get treated because of it? Why would they choose to make their life harder?
Did you choose to be straight?
Will someone please, logically, tell me why it's wrong to be gay? It's a fucking sexuality, they're not monsters.
LOOK AT THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT.
Please, tell me why they should be castrated. Also, not every homosexual as balls. ._.

If you honestly are so immature that you can't handle seeing two grown men cuddle on tv, then maybe you should stop watching tv.

You'd delete your twitter just because a homosexual followed you? LOL, You should try growing up.

So, you tweeted to the public that if your child was a homosexual you'd start abusing them because of something they have no control over? Seriously?

Who the hell are you to tell someone they are or are not a true christian. You can't even begin to understand the struggle homosexuals have with not only society, but with themselves.

It doesn't matter if you're ok, nobody's looking for your approval, and you don't have to look at them doing that. That's their business, and it shouldn't matter to you in the slightest seeing as it's not effecting your life one bit.

So they could be walking and you'd just cringe at them. That's literally the only reason? If they're being intimate, why are you even looking. Do you stop to look at straight couples being intimate in public? If you don't, why would you stop to look at gay couples being intimate?

Wow, talk about immature. If you're going to react like a child seeing their parents kiss, maybe you shouldn't be watching a tv show that is clearly more mature than you can handle.

Seriously? Your sister is, god forbid, friends with someone who's bisexual, and you're so grossed out you won't even go near your own sister anymore because of who she's friends with? Talk about a horrible sibling.

How is their life screwed up because of how they dress and act? If they're hurting people then ok, maybe their life is screwed up, but what if they just like to dress and act that way, what if they're a transgender/transexual? If you're going to judge someone you probably don't know personally because of how they're dressed or how they're acting, your life is screwed up.
And for those of which are parents, and homophobes complaining as to how they could possibly explain a homosexual relationship to their child, try this on for size.
"It's a relationship like that of a man and womans but between two men, or two women."
BAM! An explanation. Like, honestly, I grew up watching the Powerpuff girls and I never questioned HIM, y'know, the giant red lobster man/lady with the high pitched voice? Yeah, I never questioned him. I mean, honestly, why do you act like a child is so stupid that they can't grasp the concept of a homosexual relationship. Like, if they found out about them their world would fall apart at the seams.



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(White) Males:
I saw a post on tumblr with this image saying:
Men feel the pressures of society just as much as women. Through my internet searches I have come across nothing that encourages body positivity in men. This needs to change.This image and post in general garnered quite some attention, and there were quite a few people putting it down saying things like:
"Please, tell me of the struggles this dude faces as a white male. I’m really interested in hearing about the alternate reality that he inhabits. "
"WHAT A DUMBASS POST
CRY HARDER WHITE BOY"
"Booohooooo who says all girls wanna look like barbie dipshit"
Luckily, there was someone there to respond to the post, saying:
"Whoa, whoa, whoa. Are you guys honestly saying that just because he’s a man and white? Are you fucking kidding me? You all do realize what you’re technically saying right? You’re pretty much saying that that this guy has no right to be sad because there are people out there who have it worse. I thought that was one of the main things you never tell a person with depression, so why are any of you saying that here?
Seriously, what world do you guys live in? What if a white man abused as a child? What if they were told that they were not good enough by their family and and people around him? Do you think every white guy lives a life where everybody loves them, nobody thinks they’re ugly and they get everything they want by simply asking for it once? You have to be a complete fool to believe that.
Are you trying to tell me that a white person can’t be depressed because he is “privileged over everybody else”? Let me put it to you like this: Let’s say a white man loses his job, is insecure about his body (because maybe he’s not very tall or muscular, which is what society today tells a man he should look like), and has no friends. Now let’s say you have a successful black business woman who makes a lot of money, has a great social life, but also has depression. Which one of these two people has more right to be depressed? The answer: NEITHER!!!! Because depression is not always about how successful you are life or what you have. Depression is feeling that you’re not a good enough person no matter who you are and how hard you try.
All you that contributed to the above commentary should be ashamed of yourselves. There are people out there, include white boys, who hate themselves because of their looks. They will self harm just like anybody else with self hate issues, but none of you care. All you care about is their gender and skin color. I’d hate to see what any of you would say if ever met a cutter that happened to be a white guy. What would you say when if showed you his scars? Would you laugh in his face? What if he told you that he attempted suicide? Would you roll your eyes at him?
None of you are any better than those racist and sexist people you claim to hate so much. You don’t want equality. You want anybody that shares physical similarities with “the oppressor” to feel like shit. You want people who to be looked down upon because of the their race and gender; two things they have no control over. How is that any better than someone belittling a black/hispanic/asian/etc person because of a broad and untrue generalization?
I’ve come to realize this important fact: Tumblr isn’t the safe haven for logical people that so many people want to claim it is. It’s full immature, hypocritical , and ignorant people just like any other website. I don’t care if I lose followers because of this. This has to stop."
I mean, really, why does someone being white and male make them someone who can't have issues, or problem? I'm very sure there are assholes who are white males, but that doesn't mean that all white males are assholes. White males can suffer from eating disorders just as much as any other male can. They can be mistreated for their sexuality, how they dress, how they talk just as much as any male can.
A boy of nine who was found hanged is believed to have killed himself after he was ‘bullied for being white’ by an Asian gang at school.
Aaron Dugmore – thought to be one of the youngest children in the UK to commit suicide – was discovered in his bedroom after being tormented for months, his parents said.
They said Aaron was threatened with a plastic knife by one Asian pupil, who warned him: ‘Next time it will be a real one.’
He was also allegedly told by another pupil that ‘all the white people should be dead’ and he was forced to hide from the bullies in the playground at lunchtime.
A nine year old white boy was made to feel guilty about his being white because an 'asian gang' bullied him for it and convinced him it was unacceptable and tormented him because of it to the point where he was hiding during lunchtime. A 9 year old boy. 9 YEAR OLD BOY.
HE KILLED HIMSELF BECAUSE PEOPLE PICKED ON HIM FOR BEING WHITE. I'm sorry, but no nine year old kid should ever have to come to the conclusion that they should end their life because of what people are saying about them, or doing to them. I got picked on so much that by the time i was 10, I wanted to die and if I had any guts, I wouldn't be here right now. It's horrifying to me that kids are contemplating suicide at such young age. It's horrifying to me that anyone gets hurt and picked on to the point where they're contemplating suicide at all.
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Being Over-Weight or 'Fat':
"‘Fat’ is usually the first insult a girl throws at another girl when she wants to hurt her.I mean, is ‘fat’ really the worst thing a human being can be? Is ‘fat’ worse than ‘vindictive’, ‘jealous’, ‘shallow’, ‘vain’, ‘boring’ or ‘cruel’? Not to me; but then, you might retort, what do I know about the pressure to be skinny? I’m not in the business of being judged on my looks, what with being a writer and earning my living by using my brain…I went to the British Book Awards that evening. After the award ceremony I bumped into a woman I hadn’t seen for nearly three years. The first thing she said to me? ‘You’ve lost a lot of weight since the last time I saw you!’‘Well,’ I said, slightly nonplussed, ‘the last time you saw me I’d just had a baby.’What I felt like saying was, ‘I’ve produced my third child and my sixth novel since I last saw you. Aren’t either of those things more important, more interesting, than my size?’ But no – my waist looked smaller! Forget the kid and the book: finally, something to celebrate!I’ve got two daughters who will have to make their way in this skinny-obsessed world, and it worries me, because I don’t want them to be empty-headed, self-obsessed, emaciated clones; I’d rather they were independent, interesting, idealistic, kind, opinionated, original, funny – a thousand things, before ‘thin’. And frankly, I’d rather they didn’t give a gust of stinking chihuahua flatulence whether the woman standing next to them has fleshier knees than they do. Let my girls be Hermiones, rather than Pansy Parkinsons.I mean, is ‘fat’ really the worst thing a human being can be? Is ‘fat’ worse than ‘vindictive’, ‘jealous’, ‘shallow’, ‘vain’, ‘boring’ or ‘cruel’? Not to me; but then, you might retort, what do I know about the pressure to be skinny? I’m not in the business of being judged on my looks, what with being a writer and earning my living by using my brain…
I went to the British Book Awards that evening. After the award ceremony I bumped into a woman I hadn’t seen for nearly three years. The first thing she said to me? ‘You’ve lost a lot of weight since the last time I saw you!’
‘Well,’ I said, slightly nonplussed, ‘the last time you saw me I’d just had a baby.’
What I felt like saying was, ‘I’ve produced my third child and my sixth novel since I last saw you. Aren’t either of those things more important, more interesting, than my size?’ But no – my waist looked smaller! Forget the kid and the book: finally, something to celebrate!
I’ve got two daughters who will have to make their way in this skinny-obsessed world, and it worries me, because I don’t want them to be empty-headed, self-obsessed, emaciated clones; I’d rather they were independent, interesting, idealistic, kind, opinionated, original, funny – a thousand things, before ‘thin’. And frankly, I’d rather they didn’t give a gust of stinking chihuahua flatulence whether the woman standing next to them has fleshier knees than they do. Let my girls be Hermiones, rather than Pansy Parkinsons."
--J.K. Rowling |
Fat people do not have to be healthy in order to deserve dignity
Fat people do not have to be healthy in order to deserve dignity
Fat people do not have to be healthy in order to deserve dignity
If I see someone say, “It’s ok to be fat as long as you’re healthy,” one more time I’m gonna lose it. I know this is a crazy radical idea, but how about someone’s health has nothing to do with how you should treat them or how much respect they are deserving of?
Daily reminder that invisible illnesses do exist.
You cannot look at a person and tell whether or not they are healthy.
You cannot look at a person and tell whether or not they have a disability.
You cannot look at a person and know what they are and are not capable of.
Instead of “worrying” about everyone else’s health (i.e. being a concern troll), worry about your own health.
- the solution to misogyny IS NOT misandry
- the solution to negative body images IS NOT calling thin girls “ugly”
- the solution to racism IS NOT targeting white people
- the solution to homophobia IS NOT hating straight people
- the solution to transphobia IS NOT hating cisgendered people
- THE SOLUTION TO OPPRESSION IS NOT BY OPPRESSING MORE PEOPLE

Cake orcollar bonesdry thinning hair??
Pizza ora thigh gapdry peeling skin??
Ice cream orhip bonesdull eyes??
Food ora nice bodydeath??
Think before youeatencourage others to throw their lives away by posting your pro-ana shit all over the internet where vulnerable naive teenagers can read and imitate your illness that you don’t even possess.
Happy Valentines Day!
Ok, well, I wanted to blog today but I don't have anything specific to blog about so in honor of Valentines Day, I'm just going to answer love/relationship related questions.
- Who do you like and Why?
My favorite youtuber Mark, because he's just a genuinely nice guy with a great personality and sense of humor.
- Have you ever been in love? If yes, how many times, and how do you know it was love?
I have been, only once. I knew because he made me get this feeling I never got with any of my other boyfriends.
- Longest relationship you've ever been in, and why did it end?
2 1/2 years, and it ended because it had gotten to a point where he spent more time on his xbox than he did with me, and that's cool, I don't care, I didn't really like him, all that much anyway, and he was sexually and emotionally abusive.
- Have you ever changed for someone, if yes, how?
No. I feel like if you're with someone you want to change, that's not a relationship, that's a power trip (if that makes... sense). You should be with someone for who they are and how they make you feel, if you feel in anyway that you should change them, or that it's your job to change them, then you shouldn't be with them.
- Pretend I'm your ex, what do you want to say to me?
Well, uh, depends on which one lol. If it's my first ex, then I want to say go to hell, you're a fucking prick.
- Have you ever been cheated on?
No.
- Have you ever cheated?
No.
- Would you date someone who's known for cheating, if yes why?
I'm honestly not sure.
- What's the most important part of a relationship?
Honesty, communication, and trust.
- Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
I like to be in.. I wouldn't call them serious or a fling, they're just there. It'd be the kind of relationship where you started out as friends and developed into more and you get along amazingly and it's just one of those things where you're with a person who accepts you completely for who you are and what you are.
If that's a serious relationship, then I guess that. :P
- When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
If you need time to think about what you want, then yes.
- How many people have you ever hooked up with?
None.
- What's one thing you regret saying or not saying, doing or not doing in a previous relationship?
I regret not standing up for myself more in my first relationship, but let it be known that when I would confront him about everything he did to me he would act like it was nothing and then make me feel stupid if I cried.
- What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
I'd say at least older than 14. Like... when you're ready and know at least a few things about sex and what it is to be in a sexual relationship or a relationship where you actively have sex.
- Do you believe in the phrase, "Age is just a number?" Why or why not?
No, I don't. Not only are there laws to respect but people have boundaries you have to accept also. I'm sure there have been older guys who have used that line to try and coerce someone younger into being with them. Take Onision for example (I still have to post a post about him, lol) he tends to go for girls in the 17-18 age range (he's 27 or 28) because, I think, he finds that it's easier to manipulate them because they're still young and easy to influence. Plus, I mean, his current girlfriend/wife is a HUGE fan of his that he started dating when he moved closer to her after they started talking on twitter. Since she was and still is a huge fan, who wouldn't jump at the chance to be with someone they really want to be, or that they're a huge fan of? I feel like he took that to his advantage.
- What about "Love at first sight"? Why or why not?
You can believe in this if you want but I don't simply because you can't see someone's personality just by looking at them. How much I like someone depends greatly on their personality.
- What do you consider a deal breaker?
If you're pushy, abusive, a fucking prick, too distant and not willing to communicate about why, you're controlling, or you're just not honest.
- How do you know it's time to end a relationship?
It varies from person to person. For my first relationship, it was time to end it because he was worsening my depression and I just wasn't happy and it wasn't a healthy relationship so I started staying at home more until I finally got myself to break up with him. For my 3rd relationship, I had to end it because he was too busy with friends and uni and all that to talk to me, plus, I mean, I don't know if he was joking when he's do that, but he'd put down my taste in music which annoyed me and made me feel like I had to change my music taste for him.
- Are you currently in a relationship? If yes, for how long? If no, how long have you been single?
Nope. It'll be a year in March that I've been single.
- Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
I am still friends with 2 of my exes, so yes.
- Do you think people should date their friends?
If you have mutual feelings for each other, yes. Having a good, solid friendship as a base for a relationship really, IMO, helps to make it last.
- How many relationships have you had?
3, lol.
- Do you think love can last forever?
I'd like to believe in 'soulmaates' so, yes.
- Do you believe love can conquer all things?
It depends on the 'things'.
- Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
No. It depends on what they don't approve of, but then there's the fact that they don't know him like I do, or they haven't known him long enough to know that much about him. If they pointed out that he was bad for me in anyway, I'd try to see it for myself and then do something based on that.
- If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
Don't be with someone just because you want to 'feel' loved, or because you think someone finally likes you, so you might as well date them. Hence my first relationship.
- Do you think long distance relationships can work? Why or why not?
I believe they can if you're willing to put the effort in to make them work.
- What do you notice first about another person?
Typically their eyes. That's just the first thing I look at, I don't know why.
I apologize, as I do not have the source for those valentines, but if someone would post a link to the source then I will add credit for them.
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