Stop being such a little piece of shit. *RANT*

My friend had added this australian guy on skype that she had met on chatango and she made a group with me, her other friend and him and he had a fit and left, and afterwards was really rude to her, claiming she was trying to pull some shit by wanting to add him to the group so afterwards she was telling me how rude he was being to her, so I sent him a message on chatango saying the title and i got this response:

ineenersv2 (3/13/13 1:40:25 PM): Stop being such a little piece of shit
zahran (3/13/13 9:05:13 PM): And that came from WHERE, exactly?
zahran (3/13/13 9:05:55 PM): I mean, why someone so ugly is talking to me in the FIRST place is BEYOND me.
zahran (3/13/13 9:06:02 PM): Furthermore, I'm twenty-one, not nineteen.
zahran (3/13/13 9:06:11 PM): Anyway, stop talking to me. You don't have the right.
zahran (3/13/13 9:06:13 PM): Goodbye.

Notice his reaction deserves my saying that he should stop being a little piece of shit.

His bahavior bothered me so much, that i just wanted to post about it. 

Here's his profile description: I'll add commentary between parts of it.

"All women love my voice!"

Ok, I'm sure that's not true. It's cool if all the girls you've talked to so far have enjoyed your voice, but don't act like it's the most amazing thing, ever.

"This website does not contain ONE SINGLE person worth talking to. It breeds homogeny and likeness of mind, particularly among idiots alike. And it's back to my days of avid misanthropy. Splendid."

Ok, so... why are you on there if you don't like it so much? Is there even a fucking point or are you just on there so you have something to complain about?
I mean, hey, I'm no better (Chatango Pt. 1 | Chatango Pt. 2) but I don't insult anyone on there unless they absolutely deserve it, nor do I generalize the entire website and really, the only people I even bother complaining about are the incredibly creepy ones, or complete douchebags.

"The rest of my profile description is so horribly outdated and undergraduate, that it scarcely merits any thought. In simpler terms, ignore it, if not for my sake, your own."

So delete it or change it? Ugh.

Might I just take this opportunity to ask ALL of you who

• (a) Do not speak to me 
• (b) Do not WISH to speak to me, and 
• (c) Are grossly repulsed at the very THOUGHT of speaking to me,

to the point of fostering sensations of profuse nausea, to IMMEDIATELY block and delete me from their "Friends" list? I would very much appreciate your willingly taking this into stride, should you at all decide to do so. In fact, here's an advanced "Thank you", for it: Thank you."

Fair enough.

"Sweet Lord of FUCK do I despise the vast majority of the people on this thing. Honestly, if you're going to waste my time talking to me for a decent amount of time, and actually state outright that you have taken a distinct liking to me, and that we've really gotten to know one another on a deeper level, and then, come the very next day, you don't utter so much as a WORD, I say this with UTMOST understanding and consideration: STAY. THE. McFUCK. OUT. OF. MY. GENERAL. VICINITY."

Seriously? You're that kind of person? What the fucking hell if they're busy the next day you selfish prick? Their whole world does not suddenly revolve around YOU just because they've 'taken a liking' to you. You need to get your head out of your ass. What if they have other people to talk to? They obviously can't talk to you everyday. I mean, if they're online and don't acknowledge you, fine, that's pretty rude and I, myself, hate to be ignored, but you'd be over-reacting just a tad with that bullshit.

"Furthermore, please don't speak with me, unless you intend to Skype, because I honestly think typing is for faggots, in the modern world. Why the fuck do it when we can immerse ourselves in audio-visual conversations INSTEAD?"

Ah, a homophobic slur? How expected of you, lol. Ok first of all, fair enough, you want to talk to people who are willing to speak to you on skype because that is your preferred program to talk on, fine, but seriously? You just typed, in fact, you probably type everyday, so unless you have someone do it for you, are you not in fact, a faggot for typing that? You're beyond self-centered, it's hopeless.

Now, back to the messages:

ineenersv2 (3/13/13 1:40:25 PM): Stop being such a little piece of shit
zahran (3/13/13 9:05:13 PM): And that came from WHERE, exactly?
zahran (3/13/13 9:05:55 PM): I mean, why someone so ugly is talking to me in the FIRST place is BEYOND me.
zahran (3/13/13 9:06:02 PM): Furthermore, I'm twenty-one, not nineteen.
zahran (3/13/13 9:06:11 PM): Anyway, stop talking to me. You don't have the right.
zahran (3/13/13 9:06:13 PM): Goodbye.

What do my looks have to do with the message I sent? Is it necessary in the least bit to bring them into the argument? I mean, honestly, how shallow and pathetic do you have to be that you can't even think of anything else to say in place of a remark about how I look? That's like when people don't have any decent insults, so they just elect to use 'fat'. How very predictable of you.
I didn't ask about your age, and I don't know what the point of telling me it would be except to attempt making me feel intimidated. So, two irrelevant things. Good job. Also, with how you act it wouldn't surprise me at all if you were actually younger than 19. Your behavior SCREAMS 'privileged, spoiled, rich kid.'
Now, this is the best part, I don't have the 'RIGHT' to talk to you? You do realize you're on a public website where ANYBODY COULD TALK TO ANYBODY. Rights have nothing to do with it. Stop acting like you're so entitled, 'cause you're not. Stop acting like you have any right to put someone down for wanting to talk to you just because they don't fit your physical standards, or your preference to just skype. You are so full of yourself it's ridiculous, and you know what you showed me? That you absolutely deserve my original statement. STOP. BEING. SUCH. A. LITTLE. PIECE. OF. SHIT.

You're not royalty, and that ego you're sporting is doing NOTHING for you.
You know what you are? You're one of those people who goes around feeling all entitled, high and mighty, and like you are just so much better than everyone and then when people don't fit up to your impossible standards, you treat them like idiots, and like they're beneath you and then use that as an excuse to complain about people and the world. Oh boo hoo, you're a 'misanthropist', well, guess what, so am I. Why? Because of losers like you.
'Oh gosh, the world sucks because it's not what I think it should be', are you serious? You're such a fucking moron, it's incomprehensible.
I don't know how many people actually talk back to you but you better get used to it, because you're going to get into deep shit one day with someone who won't take your 'I'm better than you, so you might as well just give up' attitude.

I admit, sometimes I do have a shit attitude towards people, mostly when I'm irritated, but still, but it never comes close to your shit, so I'll give you that. You're a worse human being than I am. Congratulations, want a prize?

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Lucid Dreaming/Out of Body Experience

So, I found this post on tumblr about Lucid dreaming and there were quite a few people who were so interested in doing this and I admit, once upon a time, I was interested too, and thought it was a neat concept but never did it. I forgot about it and though I might have thought it was interesting I don't think I was interested in doing it and here's why:

According to some comments on the post I saw tonight, what this is, is actually an Obe, which is completely different to Lucid Dreaming. Here's the comments I saw tonight:

i really wouldn’t recommend doing this to get yourself to lucid dream, sleep paralysis is actually a horrible experience most of the time. i can’t speak for everyone but being in sleep paralysis most people feel agitated and/or afraid even if nothing seems to be wrong.  some people (myself and my mother included) will also see a black figure somewhere within the dream which is fucking terrifying and you wake up exhausted, so. don’t make yourself get sleep paralysis to lucid dream, there are other ways.

"NO NO NO NOTHIS IS NOT LUCID DREAMING.
THIS AN AN OBE.
IT IS VERY DIFFERENT FROM A LUCID DREAM.
AND OBE INVOLVES GETTING YOUR SPIRIT OUT OF YOUR BODY AND ROAMING AROUND LIKE YOU OWN THE PLACE. AND YOU CAN SEE SCARY SHIT WHILE DOING AN OBE IF YOU DON’T DO IT PROPERLY, LIKE BLACK PEOPLE WITH RED EYE AND ALL.
THE BEST WAY TO DO A LUCID DREAM IS TO COUNT YOUR FINGERS AS MANY TIMES AS YOU REMEMBER A DAY. I TRIED IT, AND IT WORKED. THE HANDS DUPLICATE IN YOUR DREAM BECAUSE THERE IS NO LOGIC.
PLEASE PASS MY MESSAGE ON, A BADLY DONE OBE CAN BE A TERRIFYING EXPERIENCE, READ RELIABLE SOURCES AND WAYS BEFORE DOING AN OBE, FOR YOUR OWN SAKE." 

"I’m experiencing that obe-whatever thing involuntary from time to time, and let me fucking tell you that it’s not fun or interesting or anything like pleasant and you wouldn’t want that happening to you.
Basically you can’t move no matter how hard you try as if your veins were filled with lead and you are seeing your trippiest fears grotesquely dance all around you and feeling them suck your soul out of your body while believing that they are indeed real and knowing that if you don’t move, you are a goner. It fills you with actual fear and physical pain and leaves you exhausted for the whole following day, if not longer. It is also highly possible to trigger seizure or a heart attack.
This is coming from a dude who hardly ever gets scared and I swear that I’ve never been more terrified in my life than when this happened to me for the first time."

 First of all, if I'm exhausted, or just really tired, I would much rather just go to sleep. If I ever did try this stuff and it worked, and I did see stuff that horrified me, then it wouldn't just stop after I woke up. It would trigger paranoia and anxiety, and it would affect my sleeping and whatever I'd see during the Obe, would probably wind up being in my dreams for a while after the experience.

Now, I have Nyctophilia which is a preference for the night or darkness. And as such my room tends to be dark at night unless I'm doing something in which I need the lights to be on for and if I went through a terrifying experience during an Obe, it would effect that and I'd have to keep the lights on or I'd be paranoid about being in the dark. It would be detrimental to my mental and emotional health which, considering I have depression, is already a barely there kind of thing. Not to mention, as stated in the last quote, you run the risk of having seizures or having a heart attack, neither of which I ever want to risk having.

Watching Paranormal Witness or horror movies is one thing because that's fiction or something I'm not experiencing personally so it doesn't really effect me but an Obe experience is something that would effect me personally and it would be an entirely different situation. I'd be like a really scared little kid who just had a really horrible nightmare and needs to sleep with their parents to feel better.

Over all, if anyone reading this is interested in Lucid Dreaming, or having an Obe, please, PLEASE know what you're doing, and be safe while doing it and find a safe way to do it.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Out-of-body_experience

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Chatango

(See part 2 of this article here)
It's a website that is basically a cesspool of sex hungry douchebags.

I definitely wouldn't recommend using it if you have social anxiety because I get so fucking flustered on days when I get message after message after message and it is so difficult trying to keep up, especially when it's someone who's way too impatient, or attention starved to bother understanding that.
Also, I don't know how many people notice this, but way too many guys are acting like it's a dating site. That's so annoying. Just like it's annoying when people use gaia like it's a dating site.

Today I had a run in with this guy who said

"metlo123 (3:45:20 PM): hey please remove this pic as you look so cute and hot, other girls get jealious cus of ur beauty"

First of all, I have no fucking idea how to reply to something like that. So the only thing I could come up with was 'lol', so he goes on and on about how 'cute' I am and then decides he wants to see me live on cam, and I do not cam with strangers, I'm just not comfortable with it, so I declined his offer over and over because he tried repeatedly to be pushy about it, and he gets all offended acting like I insulted him so it came to a point where I finally said

"woodenbeaver (3:56:38 PM): I don't cam with strangers. There's no exceptions no matter how much you compliment me. Either respect my preference or stop talking to me."

He was literally just one of those people who is like 'Oh, I gave you a compliment and called you an angel, why won't you just do what I want'. I mean, he didn't say that, but that's how he acted.
He stopped talking to me after I said that. He seriously couldn't fucking respect my preference, so he had to stop talking to me. I mean, I don't know if you know this, but if you're someone who does that shit, you're a douchebag.

You would not believe how many assholes are on this site. The other day this guy messaged me asking why I looked so 'serious' in my picture, and I don't. It's just a straight fucking face, ok? And I mean, he looked fucking pissed in his picture, like he was trying to act all tough and shit, so I called him out on it saying he had no room to talk, and he calls me a dumb cunt. I mean, really? What do you get out of being an obnoxious prick? It was a pretty decent conversation beforehand but then he just had to start being a dick about my picture for no reason.
Also, I don't want to sound racist or anything because I'm not, but I have found that some of the most obnoxious people to deal with on there are from India and Pakistan.
This guy from Arizona thinks I'm cute and wants to kiss me or whatever so he wants me to visit him in Arizona and even says he'd be willing to fly me out there with his own money. Do you even know how creepy that is? I don't want to visit a stranger. And this guy victimizes himself, too. Like, he said most girls from NJ are mean to him on chatango for no reason and he has no idea why they do that. He also said they were mean to him because he's from Arizona. Wtf? I mean, I get it, people can be dicks, but I doubt they just message you out of no where to be cunts to you, y'know?
He also says that the reason he's so bad at english is because he was mute and deaf since he was 8 because apparently he didn't want to talk that much when he was little, so he was a late talker and his mom yelled at him for it so it made him mute and deaf and when I said I didn't believe him because, let's be real here, that is not plausible, he goes ahead and tries to make me feel bad by saying I made him cry.
Also, his name is Jonathan. No offense but most of the Jons I've met on there have been dicks.

Also, if you noticed, my username on there is WoodenBeaver and it's because I own a minimalistic wooden Beaver

I got it from my grandpas house after he died and have no idea where he got it, so don't ask. :P
If you have a chatango and want to talk and AREN'T A DOUCHEBAG, then please, feel free to hit me up: http://chatango.com/fpix?woodenbeaver
Idk if that has a 'message me' button  on it or not so tell me if it doesn't.

EDIT: Ok, so I have just about 70 people blocked on there and I've only had the account for less than a week.
I fucking wish that the damn website wasn't flash so I could highlight and list all the douchebags I've had to deal with so that if you use the website and run into them, you can be careful.
Here, have a god damn screen shot.

Ok, I should obviously admit that not all of them are bad, some of them just annoyed me to NO FUCKING END, but regardless, here you go.

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Chatango Part 2/Q&A

Find part 1 here.

If you use chatango, how often to you speak with a person who is looking for a friendship or relationship who will say, despite barely knowing you, that they miss you? This has happened a few times, all from guys I barely know who barely know anything about me.
It's also annoying when strangers on there claim to have feelings for me or 'like' me.

I mean, not to be rude or anything cause it's really nice to have someone 'miss' me once in a while, I just wish it wasn't some stranger on chatango. I just don't get it, y'know, how can you actually 'miss' someone you barely know?  

This guy is somewhat different from the rest, though, because he had written a poem about/for me:

"shashank19 (1:07:48 PM):
I want us to stay the way we are,
and I know you will never go very far,
but whenever you go away for so long,
everything around me seems so wrong,
and the words are not enough to say,
how much I miss you once you go away,
so hold me close to you for a while,
so that I will have a reason to smile..? "

I mean, that's very nice, thanks, but how can you not see how creepy this is? I barely fucking know you and you write me a poem that makes it sound like we've been in a committed relationship for at least a year. It's just... unsettling.

Let's be real here, a lot of these guys are trying to be nice to me or feed me 'compliments' in order to manipulate me into getting what they want, which is probably affection, or to cam with me on skype, or something sexual. I know, I'm not the most attractive person in the world, and these guys take pity on me and try to act like like I'm pretty or an 'angel' or some shit so they can get me to do things with them because they think I'll fall all over the fact that someone is actually being nice to me in a 'romantic' way.
And if that's not the case, you can't really blame me for being skeptical.

Also, last night this guy was asking if I use Yahoo or skype or MSN or something so he could talk to me on one of those since he doesn't really like talking on Chatango. 

First of all, why are you even fucking on there, then? Seriously, wtf.

Second of all, after I told him I had no interest in adding him on anything or talking to him on anything other than chatango and said bye he freaked out saying 'Who do you think you are? Crazy bitch.'

Excuse me? You're 29 years old according to your profile. You're almost 30, and you're going to throw a hissy fit because I don't want to add you onto something? That's so pathetic.

I have found that the majority of the guys on chatango who have a hissy fit or temper tantrum because things aren't going their way are either older then 21, or in their 30's. Grown men who are getting their panties in a bunch over a stranger online not giving them what they want. 

Since my last chatango post, I made a new account because I got tired of all the shitty beaver jokes that people were making, and my alias on there is now Allison because I really don't feel like giving my real name out on a website crawling with creepy, older men, y'know?

Also, another thing I've noticed. Every girl I've talked to on there has asked if I'm into black guys and then said that's all they date? What the hell? Even a guy did that once.

I swear, a lot of these people are irritating as fuck.

Q&A: Chatango edition

I get asked these fucking questions by so many people on chatango who are desperate for 'love' or some shit so I'm just gonna put the answers here so I can copy and paste them in the future.

What do you do? (Study/Work?):
At the moment I do neither of those. I can't afford school and have no real interest in it anyway, and I want to wait til' I find a job that I have a real interest in.

What are your hobbies?:
Blogging, Tumblr, Reading, watching videos, Talking with friends, Hanging out with friends, Sleeping, Badminton, Ice Skating, drawing, listening to music, swimming, video games.

What's your ideal guy/type?:
Someone with a similar sense of humor and a somewhat similar personality. Gets along with my friends. Won't pressure me into sex or anything. Can handle my shit and will want to stay with me despite my baggage, my problems and faults/flaws. Just a genuinely nice guy who will also be my best friend.

So, what brings you to chatango?:
My friend was talking about it and I wanted to see what it was like so I joined. Also, to, oh, I don't know, chat?  (Seriously a lot of people actually treat it like it's a dating site or something.)

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And now some chat history/commentary: (NOTE: Stuff like this doesn't happen all the time for me, just every once in a while. It's actually a first that two people pulled this shit in one day at basically the same time.)

pratikgupta (2:46:36 PM): i like u
ineenersv2 (2:48:01 PM): why
pratikgupta (2:52:47 PM): bec of ur nature
ineenersv2 (2:52:54 PM): What's my nature?
pratikgupta (2:53:56 PM): like an angry king but soft nature
ineenersv2 (2:54:12 PM): Angry king? How does that describe me at all?
pratikgupta (2:54:50 PM): ur nature dear
ineenersv2 (2:54:57 PM): No.
ineenersv2 (2:54:59 PM): Wrrong.
pratikgupta (2:55:06 PM): y?
pratikgupta (2:55:11 PM): how
ineenersv2 (2:55:16 PM): I'm not angry.
pratikgupta (2:55:49 PM): i know but u dont like wrong thing
ineenersv2 (2:56:03 PM): What?
pratikgupta (2:56:20 PM): i loveu yr
ineenersv2 (2:56:34 PM): What?

pratikgupta (2:56:49 PM): i love u

ineenersv2 (2:56:57 PM): What the fuck?

ineenersv2 (2:57:02 PM): Is this some kind of joke?

pratikgupta (2:57:26 PM): no

pratikgupta (2:57:30 PM): im serious

ineenersv2 (2:57:38 PM): How could you possibly love me. I don't even know you.

ineenersv2 (2:57:41 PM): That's so creepy.

pratikgupta (2:57:50 PM): hmmmmm

pratikgupta (2:57:56 PM): but its tru

ineenersv2 (2:58:08 PM): That's fucking creepy

SEROUSLY? FUCKING SERIOUSLY? I don't know if this was a joke or if he was actually serious, but wow. Just wow. 

First of all, 'angry king'? What the hell does that actually mean? I can see why he'd think I was angry but let's be honest, I'm hardly ever serious and if I sound mad towards you, you're probably irritating me. One word replies and being honest, however, is not anger. 

kabeerkha (2:30:29 PM): hi..

ineenersv2 (2:30:37 PM): hi

kabeerkha (2:30:55 PM): how r u?

ineenersv2 (2:30:59 PM): good, you

kabeerkha (2:31:10 PM): m sad

ineenersv2 (2:31:13 PM): oh

kabeerkha (2:31:40 PM): coz m bored here. cn u chat wth me/

ineenersv2 (2:31:47 PM): i guess

kabeerkha (2:31:58 PM): mean

ineenersv2 (2:32:03 PM): what?

kabeerkha (2:32:15 PM): wt do u mean?

ineenersv2 (2:32:24 PM): .__.

kabeerkha (2:33:14 PM): first tll me is that u?

ineenersv2 (2:33:22 PM): in my picrture? yes

kabeerkha (2:37:35 PM): u r too beautifull girl i like u

ineenersv2 (2:37:43 PM): Thanks

kabeerkha (2:38:14 PM): really........

ineenersv2 (2:38:25 PM): ...

kabeerkha (2:38:27 PM): & dont sy thanx

ineenersv2 (2:38:35 PM): uh, ok?

kabeerkha (2:38:48 PM): i wanna say smthng,

ineenersv2 (2:38:53 PM): go ahead

kabeerkha (2:39:12 PM): i wannaaaaa..............

ineenersv2 (2:39:34 PM): .__.

kabeerkha (2:39:50 PM): fill up

ineenersv2 (2:40:02 PM): wtf?

kabeerkha (2:40:20 PM): i wanna.............you.............

ineenersv2 (2:40:27 PM): Wtf?

kabeerkha (2:40:48 PM): i wanna friendship with you............'

ineenersv2 (2:41:10 PM): i really feel like that's not what you actually wanted to say

kabeerkha (2:42:29 PM): so r u agree

ineenersv2 (2:42:51 PM): What?

kabeerkha (2:43:28 PM): can u accept my frnd rqst in heart

ineenersv2 (2:43:45 PM): What friend request

kabeerkha (2:45:44 PM): i wanna frndship with u can u do.?

ineenersv2 (2:45:58 PM): Idk

kabeerkha (2:47:07 PM): idk?

ineenersv2 (2:48:06 PM): idk

kabeerkha (2:48:54 PM): idk? meanssssssssss

ineenersv2 (2:48:57 PM): idk

ineenersv2 (2:49:06 PM): google it

kabeerkha (2:54:55 PM): why u dont know

ineenersv2 (2:55:08 PM): .__.

kabeerkha (2:55:19 PM): plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

ineenersv2 (2:55:27 PM): .__.

kabeerkha (2:55:42 PM): plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

ineenersv2 (2:55:47 PM): Stop

kabeerkha (2:55:58 PM): ok

kabeerkha (3:00:57 PM): i love you............. cute girl............

The best fucking part is when they start apologizing over and over again after I say bye, like that'll fix everything. I seriously don't get how you can think you love someone you know nothing about. How do you not think it's creepy? How can you not understand why I'd want to stop talking to you?

ineenersv2 (3:01:04 PM): Bye

kabeerkha (3:01:13 PM): sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyy

kabeerkha (3:01:23 PM): plzzzzzzzzzz for give me

kabeerkha (3:01:38 PM): i'm soooooooo sorrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy angel

Seriously? I think it's crazy that these guys seemingly are begging for forgiveness from someone they barely know? This is just ridiculous.

ineenersv2 (3:00:01 PM): Bye

pratikgupta (3:00:04 PM): i like the way ur

pratikgupta (3:00:13 PM): sorry again inee

pratikgupta (3:01:48 PM): sorry 4 evrrything

pratikgupta (3:02:25 PM): r u there

pratikgupta (3:02:30 PM): pls talk to me

Also, I think it's weird when these creepy guys call me 'angel' because that's my cockatoos name, lol.

Notice their usernames? Yeah, most of the guys who pull this shit are from India or Pakistan. Like, no offense to people in either of those areas of the world, but why are the majority of people I speak to that are from India and Pakistan so creepy? Seriously, that's just something I've noticed. 

Also, if you're someone who does this shit, if they say bye, fucking listen to them.

kabeerkha (3:08:45 PM): sorry.................

ineenersv2 (3:08:50 PM): Stop

ineenersv2 (3:08:51 PM): Bye

kabeerkha (3:09:03 PM): plzzzzzzz for give angel

ineenersv2 (3:09:08 PM): STOP

ineenersv2 (3:09:10 PM): BYE

kabeerkha (3:11:50 PM): m so sorry ?

ineenersv2 (3:12:05 PM): Stop

ineenersv2 (3:12:07 PM): Bye

kabeerkha (3:12:30 PM): m really weeping......

ineenersv2 (3:12:55 PM): I don't care. You're creepy. What you said was creepy. I don't want to talk to you anymore.

Another thing, don't try to make someone feel guilty about wanting to stop talking to you, or make them feel bad for you, or try to get their sympathy. If you did something wrong and they don't want to talk to you anymore, you need to deal with it and move on.

EDIT: OK, so kabeer complyed with my 'wishes'

kabeerkha (2/25/13 3:18:05 PM): now i'll not msging ok bbye angel keep smiling & be always take care ..bbye ?

And then not even an hour later...

kabeerkha (4:00:59 PM): r u angry with me yet?

First of all, are you trying to make me angry or did you mean to ask if I was done being angry with you?
Second of all, I'm not angry, I'm annoyed and creeped out.

So, I responded with

ineenersv2 (4:01:19 PM): I said stop talking to me. That means leave me alone and stop contacting me

 So he gets all angry at me

kabeerkha (4:02:25 PM): just go to hell..... ? now u r tottly mad..........bitch,

Excuse me? You crossed a line and got really creepy and I decided I wanted to stop talking. There is honestly no problem in that. I don't HAVE to talk to you. Are you seriously going to have a hissy fit because I didn't just accept your nagging apologies and just let you, a stranger, 'love' me?
Wow, get over yourself. You're not entitled to a conversation with me and I just don't want to talk to you, if you can't respect that, then maybe you shouldn't be trying to talk to me in the first place.
I don't have to talk to you, or forgive you.

 kabeerkha (4:02:57 PM): \what r u worth?

Also, I want to point out that trying to call me worthless just because you're mad that I didn't just be all 'oh yay someone "loves" me' and just forgive you because of all your obsessive apologies, won't at all make me want to deal with you. I have no patience to put up with your shit and if you're going to act like a spoiled little girl that didn't get the toy she wanted you can fuck off right now and go find someone else to harass.

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Snape loves Lilly?

Now, I, myself, am not a big Harry Potter fan, I know of it, and have read a couple books, but it was just never something I got into. Fortunately, I use Tumblr and happen to follow quite a few people who are very into the franchise and love it quite a bit. One thing I notice is how much people seem to want a guy to love them like Snape loved Lilly, and they romanticize Snape's interest in Lilly. That bothers me, honestly, because, I don't know, you want a love like that of a fictional character. It almost seems as strange as the girls who are overly obsessed with Twilight saying they'll wait forever until they find their 'Edward'. It's not even that it's a fictional relationship, both Edward and Bella's and Snape and Lilly's relationship were abusive and strange and obsessive in a way. More-so Edward and Bella's since Snape never actually had a relationship with her. They're just not the kind of relationships that people should want to get into, y'know? At least, that's what I think.

Now recently, I came upon this video about Love and what it is, and I liked it, for the most part, but I gotta say when she say 'like snape loved lilly' I was kind of put off. I mean, ship who you want, that's great, but still. Know who you're shipping and what their relationship is like.

 A while ago, I came across a post on tumblr with this image:

With the quote

"I dont want someone to love me like Edward loves Bella i dont want someone to love me like a fat kid loves cake.i dont want someone to love me like Romeo loves Juliet.I dont want any of that.
I want someone to love me, like Severus Snape loved Lily Potter."

And the user jawdust had this to say in response:

"I am so deeply bored with the romanticizing of Snape. I get it, he’s the brilliant, tortured, brooding Heathcliff of the piece, but he was also slimy, desperate and frequently despicable. His motivations were rarely selfless or pure. I acknowledge his eventual heroism, but I am seriously worried by the amount of people who wish to be loved in the way he loved Lily.
His love was obsessive. It was unrequited. He was so irrationally envious that he made her child’s life miserable because he looked like the man she loved. Snape tortured Harry purely because he was the product of a relationship that shattered his little emo heart. How is that acceptable or desirable?
I can only assume the people reblogging this have never actually experienced this obsessive breed of unrequited affection. When someone wants you this desperately and you’re unable to return those emotions it’s awkward, uncomfortable and unpleasant. It makes you feel like the bad person. It infiltrates your life, it plagues you with guilt, it damages the relationships you DO have. It makes you feel sick to your stomach because there’s something deeply invasive about someone thinking about you in that way when you don’t want them to. And I find it disturbing that Snape took his opportunity to hold her when she died, because in life she would never want that from him. Snape was utterly selfish in his love for her, almost to the extent he’d disregard her desires, as well as the happiness of everyone around her. It wasn’t good enough Lily was happy, because she wasn’t happy with HIM.
Lily had no interest in Snape. She was kind to him when no one else was, but she wasn’t attracted to him. Lily loved James. James was a young man with an ego. He was a bully, and he did unpleasant things, as most kids do, but that doesn’t negate the hero he became. James was courageous, and brave, and fiercely loyal. He became a fucking animagus at 15 to help his friend. He was brilliant, devoted, and he willingly, without hesitation, died to protect the family he adored. James was the love of Lily’s life, and Snape was the boy who was obsessed with her.
There’s nothing romantic about the way Snape felt for her. ‘Lasting’ doesn’t equate in desirable. If you WANT someone you have NO interest in to be obsessed with you, to the extent they will detest your child for not being theirs, then that’s all kinds of fucked up."

I mean, I've had someone 'love' me when I had no interest in even being their friend. Granted, it was no where close to how snape felt, but that's not something I'd ever want to deal with or put up with. I didn't like the fact that the kid I went to high school with had feelings for me, in fact, I was intentionally a bitch to him in order to try and make him stop because I didn't want him to have those feelings (unfortunately that apparently didn't work). I didn't like him as a person, nor was I attracted to him. My best friend has dealt with an ex who was very obsessive with the girls he was interested in; namely, my BFF and his ex. You can read about him here.
Now, I may have not been in the relationship that she was, but I helped her get out of it. He ruined her during the time they were together, and that's not something I want teens or even little girls to look for in a relationship.

I don't know, this was just something I was thinking about, so I decided to make a post.

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I Was Bullied (My Really Late Anti-Bullying Day Post)

Ok, so by the title I'm sure you can guess what this is about and I know I'm nothing special because I was bullied because it's something that too many people go through and deal with, but I just wanted to share my stories.

So, I am taking everything I've been through off my 'secret' password protected tumblr, and at the time that I wrote this I was frustrated and angry and just a disaster so you can clearly tell that by how I am talking, or typing, in the post. Now, I wanted to post this on National Anti-Bullying Day, however, It's way past that, since, according to what I could find, it was on February 27th. I contemplated waiting until next year to post this, but I would forget and then it would never happen, so I'm just throwing this up today instead.

"Dad says that my brother has had it worse than I growing up, in terms of getting picked on. Interesting, no? It’s really very thrilling to hear this considering they’re ignorant enough on the subject to think that majority of my being picked on occurred only in high school. Let’s go back, shall we? When I was little nothing major happened, nothing special. A few kids picked on me, did that stupid game of ‘sarah germs’ and nobody wanted to even touch me by accident, if they did, they’d pass it on and be all ‘LOL YOU GOT SARAH GERMS’ which, let me tell you, as a 9 year old putting up with that shit, it feels great being treated like you’re some disgusting mass that people would rather avoid touching at all costs. I had a weak bladder when I was younger, and I’ve always been a procrastinator, so if I felt I had to pee, I put it off. It got pretty bad and by the time I went to the bathroom, I had wet myself. Bam! Another thing to tease me for. 

I hate my last name. People have never been able to pronounce it right, and kids called me by my last name in the 3rd and 4th grade. This one kid, Wesley, teased me so much that one day in gym, he called me an idiot after I passed the ball to another kid instead of him, and I broke down crying. And then there were the teachers. Yay elementary teachers! Ok, so my music teacher, always said something snarky to me or was rude to me when he had the chance. My 4th and 5th grade teachers? yeah, they compared me to my brother, and apparently I wasn’t as ‘amazing’ as he was, or I wasn’t as good a student. I actually cried in 5th grade because I’m not perfect. My 4th grade teacher gave out candies and whatnot to kids who did all their work and stuff, and I had A.D.D, still do, but it was worse back then. So I had a tendency to play with my school supplies instead of working, but I tried my best. It wasn’t exactly something I could help. I did as much work as I could, but I hardly got any candy. I don’t know why that’s so bad. But I guess it’s because I felt pretty shitty that other kids got to have candy and I didn’t. I felt left out. Once, I gave her a paper that I finished and even asked if I could have a piece of candy and she laughed at me. 

I had a teacher in 3rd grade, and again, A.D.D, so I ‘daydreamed’ I guess and wound up staring out the window, and she’d yell in my fucking ear. 

I had this best friend growing up, her name was krystal. Krystal is a spoiled girl, who thinks everyone should give her everything she wants and never go against her. She wanted to be popular and have all kinds of friends, but instead she got me. Horrible, right?  

Yeah, so that’s why in the 8th grade, she ditched me to get new friends. Who did she become friends with? Why, the kids who picked on me of course! Specifically, this one douchebag Collin who would always tease me about having no friends, and laugh at me, and be rude to me. And now that they were friends, she’d join him. Let’s just say by the end of 8th grade, I was at my desk, alone, crying. Nobody fucking cared, and he was laughing at me. And to top it all off, when it didn’t work out with them, SHE CAME BACK TO ME LIKE NOTHING HAD EVER HAPPENED. But that’s not all that happened in middle school. In the 6th grade my teacher was rude to me also, she’d pick at me or make rude or mean comments. This one girl, Karen, was my friend and that year for her birthday she had a birthday party. I was invited, until she got more guests, and then I was uninvited. In the 7th grade I got teased for having a pokemon binder. Just for having it. I mean, really? What the actual fuck.  

In high school, I guess it was my sophomore year, I don’t quite remember, this one guy, Brandon, who I thought was my friend, came down the hall, and stood by me, and I jokingly asked him ‘what do you want?’. Now, I wasn’t trying to be mean, I was just kidding around, nothing personal. So this other girl chimes in that he can stand where ever he wants and even takes it so far as to say I don’t count as a human being. A bit much for just asking someone ‘what do you want’, isn’t it?  

On my birthday, my sophomore year, someone threw a water bottle at the back of my head. This girl, Mallory, threw random shit at me, and yes it fucking hurt. One day she threw a pencil at me, so I threw it back. OF COURSE NOBODY SAW HER THROW IT FIRST, SO SUDDENLY I’M THE BAD GUY. This other girl kim was PURPOSEFULLY trying to throw basketballs at my head, which none of the teachers seemed to notice. And she managed to hit me in the fucking face. So as I’m walking to the nurse, crying, she’s fucking bragging to her friends about it.Want to know why she was such a cunt to me? Because I’m related to my brother and because she hates my brother, she hates his family. So I basically got shit from this dumbass cunt just because of who I was related to. Speaking of him, we had this community room in the special-ed classroom with couches and shit on it and one day we happened to be in there at the same time and he tried to actually smother me with a pillow. 

When I told the teacher, she dismissed it as sibling problems, and he didn’t even get in trouble. Are you kidding me? Wow. 

Ok, back to krystal. One time during the summer, I believe it was, she came over to my house with her kingdom hearts manga, because that was, at the time, what she was obsessed with. She left my room for a few minutes, I thought she had gone to the bathroom, but when she came back, she had a beer. She actually went out to the kitchen, stole a beer from the fridge and then came back to my room with it. We obviously weren’t allowed to have beer so I told her she couldn’t drink that but if she ‘had’ to, she had to go to the bathroom with it. So she did, when she finished taking a few sips, she hid it behind the toilet and came back. Everything was ok for a couple minutes until she vomited all over my bed, and her book, and ONLY cared about her book, while I, in the mean time, now had no blankets to use when I went to sleep that night. After I yelled at her for it, my mom got involved so I told her what happened and she yelled at krystal. Krystal, being upset that she was actually in trouble for this, stormed off, and walked back to her house. Mom called her mom and told her what happened and we went over there to talk to her. Well, it turns out krystal told her mom that I made her do it, and that it’s all my fault. Fortunately, her mom believed I didn’t make her do anything. 

Now that that was resolved we went home to find out that the dog, Shadow, had managed to get into my room and KILLED MY FUCKING HAMSTERS. Speaking of hamsters, another time, when Krystal was over at my house, she was holding the hamster I had at the time and in all honesty it looked like she was squeezing it or had too tight a grip on it, and I didn’t want her to hurt the hamster so I insisted she hand the hamster back to me and she insisted that she not and eventually got so angry at me for wanting my own damn pet back, that she threw said pet at the headboard on my fucking bed. 

When we were little, also, she came over and completely ignored me to watch TV at MY house, while I played alone, instead of with my supposed friend. Her excuse? Well, she’s one of those people who believe that since she’s the guest at the house, she should then be allowed to do whatever she fucking wants, with complete disregard for anyone. And on top of all of Krystal’s crap that I dealt with, her parents, ADULTS, actually talked shit about me, insulted me, and whatever else, BEHIND MY BACK LIKE HIGH SCHOOL KIDS. One time, I was at her house the same time as some other people, and they were leaving and I didn’t want to be the only guest there, plus it was fucking getting dark, and I was like 13 at the time, so I didn’t, god forbid, want to walk home in the dark. So I went down to her room to get my jacket, and I hurried the fuck home. Now, conveniently, Her step-father lost 10 dollars, and since I was in a hurry to leave, he fucking assumed I stole it. 

One time in high school, these kids from my class were walking behind me to lunch, and they stepped on the back of my jeans on purpose and then shoved me down. As they walked over my body to lunch, they laughed. Meanwhile, I get to help myself back up IN THE MIDDLE OF A CROWDED FUCKING HALLWAY, and try really hard not to cry as I walk back to the classroom and not get to eat that day. Why didn’t I eat? Why the fuck would I want to go to the cafeteria and deal with more of their shit, while on top of that, I was trying not to cry. Another time, I was walking to lunch and this guy, whose friend probably made him do it, started to hit on me as a joke, and people were laughing and I ignored it and whatever, but still. In the 5th grade, also, I got this valentine from a couple of kids pretending to be someone who 'like-liked' me. I could hear them laughing when I read it.

My senior year of high school I helped out during one period in a P.E class for kids with down syndrome and other stuff and I have the hardest time doing stuff in front of people ‘cause I don’t want to be made fun of and we were playing duck duck goose and I tried really hard to not make it obvious that I didn’t have a turn the entire game until a girl pointed it out and I had to get picked, and I got too embarrassed to finished the lap around the group of people and everyone probably thought I was some stupid bitch. One time I was ice skating with 3 of my friends, who I’m not friends with anymore, and I was pretty decent at skating. The rink we were using was a huge oval and they decided to skate in the middle of it, and I wanted to go around the whole thing while I skated and eventually they decided to ditch me (I found them in the cafeteria area eating and laughing and having fun even though they said they were going to the bathroom) because they thought I was showing off (because apparently I was 'showing off' by skating around the entire rink while they stayed in the middle of it, thereby, skating circles around them), but I wasn’t. And they got all mad at me and stuff and I just wound up crying and didn’t skate anymore for the rest of the day.  

My first ever boyfriend, who happened to be someone who picked on me in the 8th grade, emotionally abused me. Unintentionally I assume, but still. He’d always try to get me to have sex with him, even going so far as to touch me in my sleep when I slept over, obviously without my permission, until I rolled over to make him fucking stop. He let his best friend be mean to me and insult me and pick on me. Guess who this best friend was? He was a former friend of my brother. So I had met him before, yes. Why did he hate me so much? because WHEN I WAS LITTLE I WAS ANNOYING. Yeah, of course I was annoying, I was a little fucking kid. Kids can be annoying, boohoo, don’t punish me for how I was when I was 7 YEARS OLD. My ex broke up with me 2 times, AS A JOKE. He’d ignore me to play his xbox, we’d get into fights and because of all my frustration and pent up emotions, I developed this horrible habit of hitting him. Of course it probably didn’t hurt him since he was bigger than I was, but still. Either that, or I’d wind up crying. 

He even called me a whore, DESPITE MY SAYING I DON’T LIKE IT. 

When I was 10, I was walking back to class from the bathroom and I don’t remember how I started thinking this, but I was crying and telling myself that the world would be better off if I didn’t exist and that everyone would be much happier without me. I used to cry and tell myself that my parents wanted a boy instead of me, and that nobody wanted me.  This one time I commented on a facebook status coppercab posted, saying he might try to be a rapper. My opinion? He’ll get more shit than he already does, and he’ll be even more of a joke than he’s already made himself to be. Am I wrong? Probably not, but he’s not a rapper, so it’s not like you would be able to know, right? This guy targets me out of all the comment saying MUCH worse things than what I said and at some point sends me a fucking message saying that I don’t matter and that I should kill myself and that nobody would miss me and that my facebook DP isn’t of my face because I’m probably obese and disgusting and ugly. And honestly, it’s not the first time I’ve been told I should kill myself. "

I wrote this back in august, so it's kind of old but it's 100% true, and I just want to address what my father said to me in regards of my brother having had it worse:

Regardless of who had it worse or not, do not EVER try to make my problems or feelings seem trivial or stupid just because of how much worse someone may or may not have had it. That's a shitty thing to do and it's, in all honesty, going to make me NOT want to tell you any problems I ever have in the future.
I also wanted to say that it does bother me when both my parents say they understand how I'm feeling, or what I'm going through because in all honestly, no, I really don't think you do. Please, please, understand that there is a difference between knowing and understanding.
Also, to my father, who is very adamant about how much more he knows about the 'real world' than I do

minus the 'go live it' part

Other posts I've written that I feel are relevant to this one:

• You Should Smile More
• My Abusive Ex-Boyfriend
• My Future?
• Do You Honestly Think You're A Good Mother???
• Kids and School

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Life Hacks, Cool Things, and Neat Pranks

I have collected various life hacks from around the internet, and I will share them with you. Enjoy!

Neat Pranks:

Take Wasabi:

Turn it into beautiful, small rectangles, wrap it in laminated paper and put it in a trident box, so that it’ll look like this:
Give it to someone when they ask you for gum and watch as their mouth burns. Enjoy.

For more pranks, visit my last pranks post here.

Cool Things:


To see more cool things, see:

• http://www.thisiswhyimbroke.com/
• http://ineeners.blogspot.com/2010/06/amazing-inventions.html

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